i guess life really kills you.
when reality sinks in. i couldn't accept it at all. you know the thought of nothing-will-ever-change-as-life-seems-so-perfect-this-way kind of thought?? well slap myself and i'm awake
now i'm guessing really reality is the truth. i've come to accept it. its part and parcel of growing up. i'm starting to think can things go back to the way it is. sometimes i really just wanna relive some events all over again. but it'll get boring. life is full of ups and downs. i've come to think how foolish i was on certain things.
u know. just lying on my bed for a few hours till i fell asleep for the past few days really got me to think of everything. whats even better is now my old phone somehow "revived" and i was reading all my sms-es one by one. that really got me to think of the past. how a fking person i was. it was my fking attitude that made me lose a good friend. i've come to regret it alot.. IF that friend know who she is and is reading this. i honestly wanna say i treasure our friendship and wish we could talk again. we may not be able to be as close as last time but at least i still want you to be a friend i could talk to. that friendship was short lived thanks to my fking attitude and that really sucks. So if your reading this, i really hope we could talk again.
Sometimes i honestly feel i'm still a fking asshole. not worth of anyone to be friend. jayson may agree with this. i can seriously imagine him saying i quite fked up. so agree. well it takes time to change and i think i'm quite as ass to be honest. i won't ask for much now. fk it!
KennyB
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