Begin one short prt first.
I jus dunno y la but i still keep questioning myself.
Did i did the rite thing by choosing. I dun wan someone to walk out of my life.
Now it strts.
Its been awhile since i blogged and i sort of forgot all the stuff i wanna rite but still can remember abit.
Last week, there was a few ambassador trips. i and aaron were in the same grp when we were in yumin then, we met a new fren lixin/joyce. then we went around to promote our schl. then aft all the promoting, i, aaron, clinton, lixin, ms sim, ms chai were all slacking downstairs in the canteen. ms sim then say the fishball soup very nice, then frm that on, everyone strted buying it. muahahaha.
Then this whole week, i went out with tong and taufik around simei to play bball and soccer. really. is the whole week. then one of the days, joyce jie oso folo us go play then u noe what, she keeper, ppl kick the ball is rolling one. then i leh, they is ram one.
then yesterday. early morining b4 ambassador, i and aaron went to Mac fer breakfast, then wei xiang, edward(i think) , joyce jie, shi chang, clinton os went to Mac. then jie pass me the cookies she baked lor. wah!!! supernice. then we headed to schl and then to chongzheng. Miss it alot. then saw mrs Olivero, Miss lee, mdm kamaliah, Mr seow, Mdm leong. miss lee and mdm kamaliah got tok to me lor. then ask me bout my result then ii was like ok ok lor. Then we all like yah. erm. yah . then i go liao lo
In the aftnoon, I went swimming with tongkhee and his bro in their grandmothers condo at tropical spring.then aft swimming 12 laps (i think) we go the jacuzzi and relax but onli i and tong go first. then we sit there, relax and tok bout the past and the present. remembering the gd old days of CZ. then when we finish liao, i and tong head back our own ways to put our bags then meet at the bridge. then aft that tong call yan. then aft a certain time of "begging" yan came. then we went to the arcade. sia la. the auntie and uncle were there again playing the street basketball again. but they were super pro. every shot was scored. but the most pro one was they play until both machine the scoreboard jam. then we went to pet safari. got one dog blardy hell eat his own shit.then i met jie at pet safari there. JIEFU. TAKE NOTE. JIE WAN DOG. BUY FOR HER
ok ba write till here ba.
KenRen The Undaunted Dead was here
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Thursday, October 26, 2006
One by one they went. one by one they left. i am stuck here and unmovable in this lonely and painful and full of sorrow world.
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Monday, October 23, 2006
Its been awhile since i posted.
Haish. Lifes hard and i want to end it now. I have onli two reason to carry on living. One is jus fer her i have the sake of carry on. then the others is frens i am very gd with.
then this are some of the onli things i wanna tell her and i wld wanna say this.
It was u when I alwaes tot of dying but u were the person hu told me dying isn't the onli way to settle problems.
I Promised u that b4 i die, i wanted to tell the girl i truly love. I love u and i truly do. And indeed i told the girl i love. I truly Love U and it was u.
The most special person to me was u
What wld i do without u.
U told me that u wanna die sometimes but i already told u that if u ever wanna die, i will not live on too cos i will oso die mentally and physically.
To me, losing u is like losing my purpose of living in Life.
I jus got this feeling that u are the one and onli girl i want. its the truth and it came frm the heart.
One thing i can't forget is the sweet smile u have .
I love u fer hu u are.
I wanna hold ur hand tight and walk with u through ur days of darkness and loneliness.
I can w8 fer U cos U are worth waiting
I will not cheat u of ur love cos i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really reallyreally really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really LOVE LOVE LOVE u
I can prove it to u that i love u but i jus dunno how but to jus let fate decide whether u will be mine or not.
that is jus some of the things i said but i jus really wanna hold ur hand and be with u.
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Monday, October 16, 2006
Sian la my life. Got quite a few things to rite.
1st thing: That day went out to watch movie with Kaiyi, Aaron, Ryson, Bryan, pinsheng, Jervis. We actually wanna watch movie then the show we want show liao and Then we go pastamania eat lunch and all the thing so ex. Then we go to the Arcade and play awhile. Play daytona with Pin sheng and Ryson.I got 1st.Ryson 2nd, Pinsheng 3rd. Then when we go play daytona 2 rite. we play finish liao then Say aiyah go watch the 3 o'clock one la ( cos we missed the 12.30 one) Then when we about to go, buy ticket rite, haven step into GV then the light went BOOM and no lights anymore. The whole cinema short circuit. Later at 5pm liao, Everyone go home liao except for me, Pinsheng, Kaiyi, Aaron. we go open plaza, Kaiyi wanna climb the go alot of wire that one. then when he climb on one of the plastic thing on the wire , i shout to kaiyi the thing bending liao then when kaiyi come down, the plastic frm straight become bent. Oolala. we aft that go to isetan and then we dunno why la , go see how the uncle cook. Then when the uncle make the hwak kway, he say mus steam the thing and u noe what he say, " Eh wo gen ni men jiang. Yan can cook , uncle can steam." then we four laugh and laugh like hell.
2nd thing. i found out smt. Someone who i tot i cld jus trust rite. he turned around and backstabbed me. Mus thank that gd guy fer telling me this guy backstabbed me.betrayed me.
3rd thing: Jervis he another guy hu betray and lucky hoeyin tell me but 4give and forget jervis liao la. this secret one day other ppl wil noe the
4th thing. I dunno why la. but u can ask my frens la. Aft i met her , The girl i tot i can really truly love, protect her, care for her , do anithing fo~~~~~. ok lets not get too carried away. but ever since i knew her, i dunno why la at outrun2 i have been so gd at drifting that every drift, i keep thinking bout her and there goes a smooth sailing drift.
ok la write till here. sayonara
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
sho sian. Can't tell her how i feel. how i really feel. sian la now only one song i can think of.
Ryan cabrera: True
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
I dun even noe how to tell her properly. how can i really tell her that i love her and i truly do. There are many wrds in my mind that is hard to say it out.but easy to type it out. i am not toking to the person directly so there is nth to be afraid but face to face is smt scary. What i can do now is jus to type it out.
This is personally to her and i think she won't read it
The world is not at peace anymore.Bombings, riots and with all the attacks. I dun want another war. I am afraid very afraid that if there is war, Everything would be lost. i dun wanna lose u cos i still wanna hang on to u cos i care for u and i still love u.
Life is unpredictable.No one is able to tell his or her own future. I jus am scared that i will lose somethings that are important to me. those things are important to other ppl too but to me they are super important cos without them , i will not be able to do anithing cos without all of it, i can't seem to face u anymore. They are:
My Eyes: if i lose them, i will not be able see u smile and ur beautiful face.ur very beautiful face.
My Ears: If i lose them, i will not be able to hear ur sweet sweet voice and things u have to say.
My Voice:If i lose it, i can jus die cos i can't be able to tell u: "I Love U and Only U"
My Legs:If i lose them, I will not be able to walk and go out with u and the others but most of all u
My Mind: I wouldn't be able to think of u and keep thinking more of u.
My Life: If i lose it, I will not be able to meet u and i wouldn't exist anymore.
One last thing. My Heart: Without it, i wouldn't be able to love u and i wldn't have this feeling of love for u.
What is love?
To me, Love is a feeling for someone. It is a special feeling for someone special. That special someone is someone who u will wanna spend the nxt part of ur life journey with. Love is the feeling of : I Have for that special girl and I wanna love that girl with all my heart and protect her, Care for her, Be with her all my life. I will alwaes wanna make that girl happy and i wldn't want to see her so sad and down. I will try my best to do everything for her and grant her wishes.
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Thursday, October 05, 2006
The Ah gong gang gang.
From Left to right. Claudia, Tyng Yuan(head slanting) , Junhao(Standing), Me (yellow shirt),
Nick GohGoh(behind Me), Gabriel(Beside Goh), Ah gong!(beside me), Seto (In Front of ah gong)
Today was maths paper. Wah. As what we were told by ms lin: " U all mus study one. u go ask the other class how evil i am and how difficult my test paper ." but u noe what happen. the paper was only soso not really difficult. Miss lin say like very the difficult like that but not at all lor. Then now different story. The girl i love. She noes this but one thing is that i noe she won't accept me one. i jus noe.But i truly love her and very very much i jus will be there for her anytime. ok la not much to say. now i upload pics la.
Fuyo. They rawk in breaking
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