Me True Selfz

2010-08-22T07:44:00.001-07:00

i hope you'll be there. thats all i hope for..

2010-08-07T10:48:00.000-07:00

I told you to come here so you would read this.

"Don't worry choco. from next week on, i will make you weeks and days better for you and you won't have to be sad anymore."
do you remember this line? its the line that i told you last week and see what has happened. your week hasn't had anything making you sad anymore. i told you i'll do to my best to keep that smile on your face and i did. just 22 more hours cos its 2am now and officially its the first week where nothing has made you frown. and its only the beginning of what i said girl. =) or would it more be like XD

i'll takecare of you okay. you mean so much to me. i'm gonna really treasure and cherish you my girl. Just recover fast so i can buy you the chocolates like i promised you. well, i've been buying for you chocolates since the time when you started being sad. choco makes your day and this choco knows what to do for that choco to see that choco smile. XD

Remember i said i'll make your thursdays the best you had. and you should know i already started doing that. well the coming thursday would make no difference even if your in malaysia. i'll still do the same thing. End of the year there will be one yo yo competition. would you be there with me? if i'm competiting in spinners, i'll win the title for you choco. but if i'm in pro, i'll place top 3 for you. i can't promise you i can do it, but i can assure you that i will do to my best.

notice i don't say i promise you this things because i don't want to make empty promises cos if i can't fulfill them, you'll be sad and i dun want you to be sad. I can't promise that i can make you happy always, but i told you that i will assure i will make happy always . i'm trying harder and harder everyday to make you smile. but i can promise you one thing. that i will love you always. this fact wouldn't change.

i love you CACCSYZ XD

2010-07-30T09:11:00.000-07:00

i decided. i shan't link anyone..

oh well.....

well met someone now. i'm happy

2010-06-13T12:29:00.000-07:00

I did it. 1st for 5a. everything was worth it.

2010-05-29T07:36:00.000-07:00

guessing no one reads my blog and furthermore i removed the link from my msn pm. so no one rmbs as well. so i dun care.

i'll wait for you. =)

2010-04-13T08:39:00.000-07:00

i would like to sum up my 3 days in FOW in 3 words. SI BEI HO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm loving folken and everyone there. without folken i'm guessing fow won't be that fun

Day1: went TP alone. surprisingly met our es peeps there so i decided to wait with them for everyone in esss to be there. then comes along clara, faizul's friend. who now is my folken bestie. shes a bimbo k! hahahas so as usual, our gls were trying to *bond* us and make us high. everyone didn't seem to bothered.... games like very sian cos not much cooperation. BUT that was before lunch.. Aft lunch, we folkens knew each other better and the "highness" was starting to build up. we're cheering for the cheers. playing Central games. FOlken sibei ho! Day 1 we won fo for day1. everyone was screaming. enjoyed. bus home alone cos everyone sorta split up. weird.

Day2: first freshie to Reach Tp. Gls were shocked cos 8 am and i'm standing at sports complex there. reporting was 8.30 so like i was stoning till Gls asked me joined them. hey manja ! Surprisingly Day2 we were dam united tgt. folken chiong alr. we had opposite school games. Omgees. run around opp our school do task. Went with subempire. FOLKA! then we also had dance queen battle. none other than wanling from FOLKEN! took it.. folken rocks k. so we had performance night. Folken had a skit plus a performance of our talents. did diabolo with laura, yo yo. then wanling and 2 others we dancing. then we had like stomp band within ourselves and we just cheer la. so high. Results at the end of the day. Folken remained first for FOW!

Day3: Crucial time for folken alr. In the morning met laura and clara and 2 others. we practically bought 50 bottles of crysanthemum tea for our GLs cos they were losing their voice for us by cheering.. they were touched. hahas! and It was wet games. omg being soaking wet and u have to run around the school is like crazy. but we folkens had fun! hahas. Final clash. Almost every team cept for KETSU! targeted us cos we allied we ketsu and zadaz but zadaz backstab. we were out of the clash in the first round. all of us in folkens were kinda down but still we had to cheer up for our GLs. so went to the auditorium aft wards which we watched a short video of our 3 days in FOW. touching. some ppl cry. then we hd the announcement outside for best freshies from each empire and also who won FOW! i got the best freshie award. hahas! and folken WON FIRST! like we didn't expect cos aft final clash. we were dam happy. some ppl were so happy they got back their voice! i love folken! we then headed to CPF building for our "dinner" all tabaoed food from around and sat down and eat at cpf building there. i bused home with Charles and faiz. thats all for FOW it was dam fun.

Day 5: note day 4 almost everyone was resting cos there was FOC but me and clara went back TP find FOC folkens and GLs! so day 5. folkens all met at TP bus stop and we then headed in tgt as one FOLKEN! so cool to see our gls again and mingle with the FOC folkens! saw some familiar faces in foc folken! well we had jam and hop and everyone was partying. then we did the TP mass dance, school song and hand sign song again! SO HIGH! hahas

i guess thats all for now.

FOLKEN ROCKS!
Kenneth out

2010-03-14T03:29:00.000-07:00

just posting now

Yesterday went out to celebrate Fad's Bdae plus was meant to be a bochup outing but onli got 3 ppl go. champion sia.

well i had my show during the aftnoon at POD. performed infront fo the MP ms irene ng sia. i even got a photo taken with her. uber cool. aft which i was teaching nelson and huishan(the singing group couple) how to yo! hahas. well many opportunities are opened to us aft yesterday to perform.

then i rushed off to orchard to meet xinyi. idiot sia. tot got others onli end up 2 of us cos fad had video shoot to go. so we were walking pass taka then there was this sleek vs street dance battle. it was uber cool. like out of this world cool man. it was funny how the dance teams were making fun of each other.. aft taka me and xinyi went off to bugis to wait for fad there cos he was shooting there and we could save time. so aft which he came, we ate and walked to suntec cos fad wanted to get his iphone and so we went to it show. DAM FKING PACK i tell you. and xinyi rmb that number thing wor. hahas

so yea. we headed over to swensens to celebrate Fad that IDIOT's bdae with a proper cake curtosy of my mum. hahas. Fad was touched.

Happy bdae yet again IDIIIIIIIIOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!

KennyB out

2010-03-11T03:28:00.000-08:00

나는 더 이상 말하거나 생각하기 위하여 무엇을 모른다. 나는 진짜로 그것이에 사용한 후에 가는 시간을 방법 원한다. 나는 i'를 알고 있다; 그것을 미련하고 어리석을 것이 그러나 소생하는 m는 한번 더 저를 위해 중대할. 사람들은 그것에 대하여 더 이상 생각하지 않기 위하여 그러나 저에게 말한다 좀더 저를 그것을 생각하고 싶 좀더 나는 그것에 대하여 생각하지 않는다.

thats all i wanna say now. no point trying to translate it. it'll be broken.

2010-03-10T06:38:00.000-08:00

i still hate myself. fk-ed up

2010-03-10T06:09:00.001-08:00

ok i'm sounding emo infront of everyone. honestly i give in to pressure alot

fk it yet again.

2010-03-10T05:16:00.000-08:00

i guess life really kills you.

when reality sinks in. i couldn't accept it at all. you know the thought of nothing-will-ever-change-as-life-seems-so-perfect-this-way kind of thought?? well slap myself and i'm awake

now i'm guessing really reality is the truth. i've come to accept it. its part and parcel of growing up. i'm starting to think can things go back to the way it is. sometimes i really just wanna relive some events all over again. but it'll get boring. life is full of ups and downs. i've come to think how foolish i was on certain things.

u know. just lying on my bed for a few hours till i fell asleep for the past few days really got me to think of everything. whats even better is now my old phone somehow "revived" and i was reading all my sms-es one by one. that really got me to think of the past. how a fking person i was. it was my fking attitude that made me lose a good friend. i've come to regret it alot.. IF that friend know who she is and is reading this. i honestly wanna say i treasure our friendship and wish we could talk again. we may not be able to be as close as last time but at least i still want you to be a friend i could talk to. that friendship was short lived thanks to my fking attitude and that really sucks. So if your reading this, i really hope we could talk again.

Sometimes i honestly feel i'm still a fking asshole. not worth of anyone to be friend. jayson may agree with this. i can seriously imagine him saying i quite fked up. so agree. well it takes time to change and i think i'm quite as ass to be honest. i won't ask for much now. fk it!

KennyB

2010-03-09T06:12:00.000-08:00

Do do it Chu~♡
(It‘s) true true true true it‘s You~ Do do it Chu~♡
Do do it Chu~♡
(It‘s) true true true true it‘s You~ Do do it Chu~♡

알고 싶은 게 매일 너무나 넘쳐 아이쿠 아이 쿠 쿠 쿠 쿠
느껴봐야 할 것 또한 넘쳐

매일 수 백 번 상상하며 기다려 왔던 그에게

입맞추는 순간 잠에서 깬 그녀처럼
Do do it Chu~♡
(It’s) true true true true it’s You~
전혀 다른 시공에 눈을 뜬다 해도
Do do it Chu~♡
(It‘s) true true true true it‘s You~
난 이렇게 떨리는 가슴을 믿어
아직 모르는 세상을 내게 열어줘요
Do do it Chu~♡
(It’s) true true true true it’s You~ Do do it Chu~♡

아직 몰라도 될 게 너무나 넘쳐
아이쿠 아이 쿠 쿠 쿠 쿠
감추려고 할 수록 호기심 넘쳐
Yeah Baby Yeah Baby Yeah Baby

파랑새가 사는 새장에서 꿈을 꾸어도
채울 수가 없어 날아 가겠어

입맞추는 순간 잠에서 깬 그녀처럼
Do do it Chu~♡
(It’s) true true true true it’s You~
전혀 다른 시공에 눈을 뜬다 해도
Do do it Chu~♡
(It‘s) true true true true it‘s You~
난 이렇게 떨리는 가슴을 믿어
아직 모르는 세상을 내게 열어줘요
Grow up Grow up Grow up

아직 모르는 세상을 내게

[Rap]
I got a little plan so pick up the slack
You wastin‘ time with the CHITCHAT
You’ve been caught
so give it all you got
It’s time to make it make it take take take it
설레여 두근거리는 맘
왠지 마치 동화 멋진 예감 다다다가와 NOW
Do it Chu~♡

매일 수 백 번 상상하며
기다려 왔던 세상에
Do it Chu~♡
입맞추는 순간 잠에서 깬 그녀처럼
Do do it Chu~♡
(It‘s) true true true true it‘s You~
전혀 다른 시공에 눈을 뜬다 해도
Do do it Chu~♡
(It‘s) true true true true it‘s You~
난 이렇게 떨리는 가슴을 믿어
아직 모르는 세상을 내게 열어줘요
Grow up Grow up Grow up Grow up

Seriously back

2010-03-05T20:37:00.001-08:00

Ok i'm seriously gonna update this blog more often from now on. really. gonna revive it.

Seriously honestly speaking. If not for Bochup and meimei. this year chingay would be a BIG BORE! cos i'm seperated from my circus group.. like i'm the onli one alone. ladders have andy siang and huey in one grp. dance then like kl feli and pei all in one grp. then i'm alone. like seriously. but well chingay was fun with bochup. Fad, xinyi, elsa, nicole. amira, angela, Bevan. all of us the fake ppl and the whole bochup gang. how can i forget liying omg. hahas

Oh man miss chingay. oh well. ytd had circus practise. like seriously the whole old bunch of us came and practise again. so long nvr done this alr. but with the addition of Robin Benny and Seth the FPD ! hahas. and we saw a chiobu or u can call a hot babe. but without make up one shes like oh my god. hahas. there was also a hunk for zipei and feli. everyone was in "love" ahahahas esp seth and robin.

Expect something on appreciation night folks!

Omg. AP and WCC is coming soon. like 2-3 more weeks? just so lil time left to train. i joined 3a eventually. gonna have fun on stage.. hahas. and i don't know why. my wrist and elbows are starting to hurt badly. what i mean too is that it has a funny cracking sound when i twist it. isit normal?? Where jayson!!!

And this last post is to someone. i dunno if that person would read. i guess not.

I seriously wanna know whats going on in your mind now. u know when your not telling me anything and u just block me like that. i'm worried for you. i really hope aft you've cool down u could at least tell me what happened. at least i know how i could help you in anyway. if anything was my fault then i seriously am deeply sorry..

thats all folks. for now..

KennyB

sorry

2009-11-15T07:12:00.003-08:00

hey ppl. sorry for neglecting this blog. ok if there is still ppl reading lah. dun think so. will change and update soon. its in the progress

Truth

2009-06-11T11:09:00.000-07:00

I guess this would be a super long post?

Its been months since i've blogged.

Since i feel like it. why shldn't i?

Many Events happened within this few months.

Lets start with Chingay Appreciation dinner.

performance was fun.

cocked up yoyo routine.

perfected diabolo routine

but mostly best was getting everyone high when we played the chingay song as the last of our routine.

I still miss it man.

Food was great

DJ was Awesome.

2nd event that happened recently was SYYC
Singapore yoyo championships or Xinkapoh Yohyohjambianchip

Event was uber awesome. even though i din get to participate last min, but still i made it for the second day. but onli went in evening till the closing man. was so holy yabai. met taka, kentaro, and of course how can i forget DIMI!!!!!!! yabai eh.

So yea when i got there, fajar din go up yet. then i was in time to catch his 4A freestyle. was pretty awesome in my view. then saw aikhwee's, sean's marcus's alex's and christopher and willie and malcolm's FS. all was yabai.. so i bought a pgm ver.2 there, taka, kentaro and dimi signed it for me. cool man. then i saw veron at the end too. hahas. she was there to watch and hang out with malcolm.

and yep, sean won 1st for 4A. guess really was aikhwee's rest day. but fajar won third for 5A. yabai man.. And i went on stage and did 2A with taka and the whole yoyo community man. yabai experience

3rd event has to be.. not say event lah but was meeting Fajar today.

Was cool man meeting him aft so long. ctually no. saw him at syyc. but this time was yoyoing with him. it was a friggin hot day. We first went drumming and CS then fajar tried and i had no comments.XD. then went to open plaza to play. we were shooting videos aha. and then there were small kids there so we were entertaining them eh. hahas. fajar was disturbing this small boy which is so cute. hahas. stay tuned

Here is something going out to him

Fajar oh fajar brother.

yr one of e most inspirational players i met. u inspire me to train harder seriously man. thanks for those encouraging words that u told me. i will not give up man and u believe in yrself too yea. yr seriously like one of the best yoyoers i've seen. and honestly i think yr e best lah. Hayabusas and sandglass for e win man. Offstring and 1A.

So much for a long post yea.

right. abit short i guess

KennyB signing out.

For those who had believed in me. Thank you

stress

2009-04-27T03:02:00.000-07:00

i dunno why but i'm going crazy..
mad..
insane...

school is tiring.. studying everyday. got this motivation to study suddenly

recently kneecap injury is starting again. a recurring problem. ankle also hurting.

and further more, with syyc and exams so near aft the other.. with writing and training for syyc. my wrist and arms are starting to hurt.. dang man.

i'll post some other time..

signing out
kennyB
injury prone
i found u now...

2009-04-14T02:21:00.000-07:00

okies shall blog

blog because didn't want blog to die and became freako also told me to. lol

been hanging out with lixin jie this two days. been awhile since we've met. crapped around like how we used to when she was still in east spring. life goes on. heyhos.

life ain't sweet for me. i'm living it day by day. not much plans for e future or stuff like that. just living the best i can.

outcast in this room. freaking tired..
play on or be gone. dang.

much randomness comes into my mind. so much things come into it yet so little things i could type out..

Watching as the sun sets behind the buildings covering it
Watching as the sky changes colour,
Watching as the clock ticking more and more,
Watching as the day ends.
i stop to think, Can time just stop for a min? just one would be happy for me to see what the world is like before it changes again.

KennyB Signing off

and not to forget eh.
someone who did the same
EVANGELINE HUM YAN XIN
UBER BIG NAME

dang

2009-03-28T11:12:00.000-07:00

abit bored. decided to blog

preps for syyc..
1A: pgm
2A: raiders or pulse
4A: Hayabusa
5A: FHZ

gah. pgm turn responsive and bearin has funny sounds.
went mil's bdae party just now. met a few new friends. hahas. i'm the oldest with them. all sec2 and sec1. hahas. indeed fun to be with them man.

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We’d see the day when nobody died

kenny signing off

contradiction lies

2009-03-26T06:07:00.000-07:00

Back to blogging now.

In life, i've realise, contradiction occurs more frequently.. lets say that theres a few cases in life.

i stopped blogging awhile cos of some probs in my family, u guys shld know.
turning from an emotional breakdown to where i would stand today would be thanks to the help of frens..
i've learned of the lessons of life now. how to seek adventure well, living life to its best.. i wished i could turn back time again. to be able to treasure every moment of it and relive it once again.. and to treasure all those times again and be less arrogant and ignorant and idiotic and foolish. but i come to think too. without those, i realise that without what i've done, i wouldn't have the experience what i had that made me appreciate life more now.. u gotta think somehow..

becoming that emo kid again is something i dun wanna be animore as i was in e pass.. i don't know now what it wld be like to live life again and being able to change what i did wrong till right again.. but i guess, life may be more perfect then.. but coming to think again, i wouldn't have learn the life and lessons and not to repeat the mistakes again..

sometimes frens are the best ppl on earth, but the best group of ppl, would actually be your family. truthfully speaking, i used to hate this place, this ground i'm on now.. but to think and act now, i guess this is the place where i would belong.. parents are the two ppl u can trust the most.. they know whats best for u and when they know, means they know but sometimes u yourself shld also do what u think is best for u too. but it contradicts once in awhile

i guess i'm done..

KennyB

to u sis

2009-03-11T05:40:00.000-07:00

At Times, u were there for the both us.
u've really come a long way with us
giving up so easily now is just so not u.
u're always so strong.
its time, maybe let both of us to takecare of u now..
we're always here for u no matter what, when, why.
we'll help u no matter how.

u're the best to the both of us.

kennyB
u made me smile, ain't it my turn to make u smile?

STAGE

2009-02-28T09:09:00.001-08:00

Remember this, once tgt, forever tgt.
=D

Screw society, my memory of the past is all back...

Long

2009-02-22T00:53:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, long time since i've update. bout a month or so?

still suffering from post chingay madness even though its been 2 weeks. gah.

nth much to post eh.

just working hard on my yoyo routine now. training a new diabolo trick and combination from somewhere. picking up my cigarbox from where its left of.

the best

Chingay

2009-01-21T23:54:00.000-08:00

chingay eh, one of the best times i have had in this year. yet so fast, next weeks is the grand performance alr

Ppl i met there, all are the best man. seriously. the best one cld ever wanna know.

yeah, all i could say is next year, i'm gonna go chingay again.

Elves rocks!

Kenneth spinning off!

sista u rock man.

Reseukt

2009-01-12T03:06:00.000-08:00

Chingay 09 rocks.

Seeing the release of the o'level results today, i saw many emotions displayed, fear, joy, sadness etc.

it made me think, what do i wanna feel when i get the same piece of paper next year

CHINGAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-27T08:52:00.000-08:00

Woohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Today is the last chingay training for this year,. lmao. sounds a lil lame. HAHAS.
Even though i'm tired, I'm still hyper thinking about everything today!!!!

First of all. a great job for everyone today man. Chingay is tiring the most today but the most fun today.. hahas

secondly, the performance was kinda ok but i totally screwed my yoyo performance. gah. and the fire poi part was like nth to say, heard ppl scream, saw my shirt on got smoke come out due to the contact with fire poi. =.=. Andy's handcuff, was cool but no one recognized it, he went emo.

Chingay is indeed the best time of my life and and screw it, school is reopening. dang

Kenny signing out

PS: Note to andy, Bring and extra belt

morning

2008-12-16T23:36:00.000-08:00

Its was almost yet another sleepless night..

but eventually, i slept at 7 am when the sky was alr bright.

So i was talking to fajar on msn. Hyper heavy spinner box man.

at around 5 am i offlined. fajar called me. we chatted. Ellegarden man!!!!!

so here are some pics of the yoyos i wanna get

Plastic Grind machine. this i alr have and it plays gd. just that fajar dinged it playing freehand. xD

Dark Magic by yoyo jam. Andrew kept saying getting legacy as it is the same as this onli the price and material is different but cheaper

Then the superstar by YYf. fajar as it and it plays super smooth and well. one of the best yoyos out there.

And the hyper heavy spinner box, One of the better boxes out there. on the top can store 8, below can store 12-16 more and there is a seperate pull out compartment for all yr lube, string, parts etc!!

Woots.

kennyb signing out

Packed Weekend

2008-11-28T06:48:00.000-08:00

The week end is here yay!! for everyone....
but not for me.
lols
its a busy weekend.

Tomolo chingay from 12 - 6pm. GAH.
Sunday morning got some civil defense thing with taekwondo peeps at tmart.
then night got performance at tampines ole.. can i last?
just hope i'll be able to fall asleep when i go sleep. i dun want insomnia to work up again. its like every 2 days i won't sleep for a night. gah

spinnning out. gah
and yea, Screw Dark Magic, Lets go Legacy

Early morning

2008-11-20T14:35:00.000-08:00

the view i see now

its 6.30 in the morning..

i din sleep
again.....

i like have taekwondo tonight, chingay tomolo. my body will be stressed out alot. hahahs.

currently talking to fajar.
his going to malaysia for cyyc, yoyo championships lah.
a great dude he is..
even though i met him onli a month or so, he's really a gd fren of mine. hahas.
he is the guy that made me yo harder and keep on practising on my yoyo.
he is a great inspiration, he also is a serious dude. he practises hard to get all his tricks right and nvr fails to.
he is sure one guy i can count on for yoyoing too.
he can do diabolo too. somemore tricks that i dun even noe xD
fajar cheer up, heck those forum ppl.. work hard on yr yoyo. nvr give up.

heres a video of his. watch it and support him!!

Freako

2008-11-19T05:50:00.000-08:00

YAK! YAK!! YAK!!! YABAI!!!!

Was forced to blog by freako. hahahas.

she's one crazy woman. just go to her blog and see and u'll know. hahas.

lets have an update of my yoyo case. hahas.

The Front!

The back of the case:

The main yoyos.: Things in here are, Duncan butterfly, Raider Ex, 2 Bootleg yoyos. YYJ Speedmaker. Duncan Freenhand Zero, Metal Zero, Yomax G-force, Yomega Exodus, Duncan Hayabusa

My parts and strings!:

Ok thats all folks

Fajar apparently just did a very yabai video. super yabai. bagged them all

ahaha

KennyB signing off

Iife facts

2008-11-18T07:38:00.000-08:00

Hey spinners.

decided to blog.
and i won't be doing watever quizzes. dun really have the mood to answer them.
keep listening to elliot yamin - wait for you

i just dunno..
time kills everything eh?
i'll wait then..

Recently like ytd, Met fajar to get the case from him.
he indeed is a true yoyo player to be respected.
gotta really thank him for alot.
tot me the offstring basics and some 1A tricks and also like whats up in the yoyo world.. also explained to me the basics of yoyo maintenance and stuff. he knows diabolo and poi too.
really respect him alot. .

Been yoyo-ing alot. lols. hahas
1A and 4A will be my main divisions
Decided so i'm gonna train hard.

Nth much to write aniway too.
i suddenly miss the days of Laos and circus when siang they all were still in the school..

Emo-ing. hahas. gah.

Had a fun night chatting with freak last night. hahas.
since there is nth much.
shall write smt to her.

TO freak:
i hope yr wires are still ~~not~~ attached properly. HAHAs. i noe i'm a good person hor?? Dreamland 20 eh?? hahas. i still remember first time meeting u was during national day singing competition last year. hahas. it was a funny one. still remembered u sang tong hua.. english version somemore. powderful. xD. so fast one year has past.. i guess yr still that freak eh. lols. we see each other at every performance this year. lols. one front stage, one back stage. lols. really was nice knowing you. hahas. freak.. gd luck in the future. and enjoy yr hols.!!

KennyB signing off

2008-11-08T22:59:00.001-08:00

So many things have happened.. i'm affected so badly now.

i'm lost, confused..

i lahte myself.. i'm thinking. i'm soul searching.

i need to find a way. to clear my mind.

Memoirs

2008-11-08T08:33:00.001-08:00

yoyos of my own

Memories, The best i ever had.

i'm sorry

updates

2008-10-26T10:37:00.000-07:00

Since i'm free.
shall update now

Friday:

12 noon: went to nat's place.. took the chicken wings , dam heavy.. cabbed to mart, then Nana called said their things heavy so we collected the thing from them and went to school to wait for mdm teo.
hahas. mdm teo face seems black..

then waited for her, nat took photos with me, nana and amirah..

Mdm teo then was done, then she drived us to loyang point sheng shiong. picked up shazrin at school gate. then met mizan mubarak and nizar.. they keep disiaoing me about me and nat, abit irritating but ok..
mdm teo had to leave early as she got function dinner with her husband..

2-3 pm. reached.. unpacked everything. then brought nat to walked at Ehub.. we went to eat.. hahas. had fun.. bill was 21 plus so quite ok la.. $.$

then we went arcade.. play shoot hoops with nat.. then we went to bring peixuan to the chalet.. Aft which i and nat wanted go white sands and peixuan had to folo. =.=
I had fun with her. hahas. we go there shoot hoops again.

then we went back. everyone was there alr. so me and nat went for walks again. watched the sky change colour. sweet times. hahas..

eventually went back.. then again, we went out again to bring ms ng. then go back makan. I swear, the guard at the entrance see us until he dam pekchek. we walkin and out atleast 10 times..
then aft that went out with ms ng again. then came back with mr wong, ms sim, u-jae, mdm ong and her husband. they keep disiaoing about us. dam paiseh lo..

then somethings happened. i was pissed abit. promise k?

that concludes friday.

Saturday:
7 am, met andy and siewhuey and edwin at mac, then we went school. as we under circus arts need help for ambassadors. hahas.
then we realised, since no music, we scraped the routine stuff and went freestyle..
teached ppl. hahas.

then aft this we headed to east point, just walked around. then settled down at burger king to slack. we talked about circus stuff, got pissed off and was worst when we saw someone. tried to find somewhere to eat but no where. then we headed to Tmall. found a place to eat. and continued to talk. we then head to arcade. just played abit. and yea, we then all headed home. but onli to shower. and then we met up at 4 again to go down to flyer to watch ethan siang edward fiddy perform.. lols. feli tagged along in place of edwin..
On the train we talked about stuffs again, got pissed again, hahas. reahced flyer and siewhuey leaded the way. *applauses.* Peformance ended. all head back to tamp. somefeud on the way back but was resolved. all headed to KFC,lols ate. Siang and andy went to my house to chat.. i kena from siang. had to pack my rm or no diabolo tricks. T_T.
we talked till 1.30 am?
hahas. send them out to the door. had fun

and therefore now, i
m blogging.

signing off.
kenny da juggler.

loves nat.

Funess

2008-10-24T09:12:00.000-07:00

Today was class chalet.!!! woots. fun is fun but bored also bored.

got to spend the whole day with my dear girl..

shall blog tomolo. its like 12 and i have to be at school at 7?

World

2008-10-17T08:41:00.000-07:00

Back here blogging

I was told by "Her"not to hate him anymore as things are ok. but i doubt so. aft so many things happened. i look at things in a diff perspective alr.

went out to find terence and jianglong to talk..
which really made me feel better..
i need to set my mind straight..
I need to find things to keep me occupied.

i know hols i'll be working with girl, chingay rehersals. i don't even know if my religious thing still on..

i wanna give some msg to some ppl.

To someone.
think before u act. just think.
even if its just now. i dun no. on the day u wrote that, i was alr pissed with my own problems. i'll forgive and forget.. u gt to thank girl for speaking for u.

To Terence:

Tunang ar tunang. dun think so much.. its like this. as i told u alr. the truth is better. to understand. dun think so much. next time we go out tgt lah. lols. i need to work on my diabolo.

To ah girl:
i miss u every moment aft the incidents happened at home. i really miss u more and more.. everyday. every second. really more and more each day.. despite watever happens. i really wanna thank you for comforting me those pass few days. really girl. thanks for being there for me. i love you all the more and more.

kenny B
signing off at a happier side now.

FUCK THIS WORLD

2008-10-16T04:36:00.000-07:00

FLAUCK...

I really dunno now la.
i really. i've given up alr.
i've given up.
will u guys stop being nosey too..
really.
if i ever lose control in class. i will really snap off and be a different person.
i won't be the same kenneth i was any longer.
i won't

FREAKING WORLD

2008-10-15T23:45:00.000-07:00

IN THIS WORLD..

EVERYONE HAS A HOME RIGHT.
A HOME IS WHERE YOU STAY, HAVE SHELTER, BE HAPPY WITH YOUR FAMILY.
~OH SO SWEET~
BUT PLS WAKE UP TO REALITY...
ALL THIS ARE JUST DREAMS PPL HAVE.
I'VE NVR BEEN SO ANGRY THANKS TO ONE KANINABEICHAOCHIBAI BASTARD LA.
THANKS MAN. INDEED THANKS. HOW CAN U THROW ALL THE BLAME WHEN ITS YOUR FUCKING FAULT.

I'VE KNOWN U ALL MY LIFE
I KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
I KNOW OF YOUR FUCKING PAST.
INDEED,
A LEOPARD WILL NVR CHANGE ITS SPOTS.
THANKS TO YOU, I'VE INDEED SUFFERED FOR AT LEAST MY 15 YEARS, BUT I WAS NOT ALONE. THINKING YOU WERE LOVING. FUCK MAN FUCK

I'VE NVR BEEN SO ANGRY
TO ME NOW, I REALLY WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS FUCKING PLACE. TO ME, THIS HOME IS ONLI FOR SLEEPING.. I DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANY OTHER THINGS TO IT..
FROM THIS DAY ON, I KENNETH BAY SIN SIANG WILL NOT TAKE IT STAYING AT THIS HORRID PLACE HERE. ALL THANKS TO ONE UNGRATEFUL BASTARD
I'M VENTING OUT ALL MY ANGER ON THE WALLS HERE.
EVERY PUNCH I SEE IS YOUR FACE
I JUST FEEL VERY UNEASY AND SIAN HERE.

regrets

2008-10-12T06:49:00.000-07:00

Hope you see this.
I cannot let you go.
i can't seem to forget. i cannot just like that and go

i'll be packed this holiday.
chingay training.
religion classes oversea for 10 days.

i've lost myself.
i've lost hope in myself.
i dun even know who i am.

Regrets

2008-10-11T07:06:00.001-07:00

i'm sorry. i'm sorry.

to all.

my phone is not with me. dun bother contacting me but i'll contact u.

i'm sorry
u meant the most. i'm sorry

baby girl

2008-09-19T02:31:00.000-07:00

Yoz. back to blogging.

this will be my last post for the time, will mia as exams are exactly a week away, this few days are the most happiest days of my life. reason being new sundia and yeah, u know.....

hehe

nth much to rite aniway but one more thing

CHINGAY 2009 here i come..

kenny.B signing out
Girl, yr the only girl i ever wanna love

Circus

2008-09-06T10:26:00.000-07:00

okies ppl, Saturday performance went quite well till THE FUCKING RAIN CAME POURING DOWN!

tampines mall one is one of the best shows. Hahas. Thanks guys for Saboing me.. gg, fear for beatbox

Currently in the innodea room. bored by surrealism..

And apparently some childish bitch la, i guess u guys know who, its fucking irritating.. =)

pics of surrealism

signing off

Emoish

2008-09-05T08:07:00.000-07:00

Here blogging again..

Kena FORCE by freako. that evan. GG =.=.

ok i'm plain bored. finish tkd training not long ago. f**k those ppl la, dunno come train or play one. Qilin!!! must be more fierce!!!!! ahh, than folo chingkai method also can la. sianned taekwondo not what it used to be alr..

i'm really tired today. just online for onlining fun. lame yea?

tomolo is the two big performance. gonna be a tired day!!!

nothing to do aniway.. and as usual, webcam with evan that freako. lolols

so that day she take my pic, now my turn to take hers

SIAO ZAR BOR vv

Kenny.B Signing Out!

Girl i miss u so much, its been awhile since i saw u. dam

Life

2008-08-31T09:17:00.000-07:00

Sianned.

Talk to jlo about some probs of life.

i'm getting sick of it alr..

i dunno now la.just gotta go on with life...

diabolos are my life.. loving it forever.

my girl.. the onli thign that is more important than my diabolo.

followed by taekwondo.!

here are some pics. dam coool diabolos.

Sundia fly!

Sundia New style!

Taibolos!

and my most favourite! sundia sun the new lightweighted one. super cool colour.

unstable

2008-08-30T11:23:00.000-07:00

sitting here,

its 2.30 in the morning.

lazy to blog about all the events that happened.

and i really wanna thank the ppl for the wishes and presents u all gave to me.

thanks to jolene for the box of hearts,

jem and kailin for the wishes.

thanks to gret and farah woman!!! for the countdown.

my family for the laptop and new phone and ang pow.

steph for the chocolate.

andy for the wishes too

and also jiaman for the muffin.

and not to forget, even for the punch early in the morning!.

i'm really thinking of alot of things now. aft so many events that happened to me, do i belong in my class? do i even have the rights to continue to be in express? i now think with my current situation, i think normal is where i would belong to aye?

i'm just in a state of emoing. i just can't get over my habit of not studying and playing playing. i'm just confused. i dunno why..

signing out

ken

'Cos you bring out the best in me,

like no-one else can do

That's why I'm by your side

'Cos you bring out the best in me,

like no-one else can do

That's why I'm by your side

That's why I love you

it would be nice eh?

business

2008-08-22T09:54:00.000-07:00

Hey yo.
feel like blogging now.

i'm dam tired with school and outside activities.

school.. at least i'm catchin up with school subjects.. i miraculously passed my maths test. hahas

i've been busy with school performances. now teachers day thingy. lols
ytd and today or u can say thurs and fri, have been rehersing for it.. must slide and sway left and right. lols. benjamin my partner/ the 2nd guitarist

i'm proud to say, after so long. i've mastered infinity..!!!!

Circus is fun now. hahas. lols. we have willy around now too..

actually i dun have much to write la. but andys my best partner in everything from circus to gaying around to dancing to shuffling. lols. hahas..

going back to train at taekwondo too aft watching the match at beijing olympics. they are sick ppl..

signing off and out

kenneth

a guy soon to be dead?

2008-08-12T00:19:00.000-07:00

Here's a post to update.

i needa catch up with school work now. bored. sianned

had mc today, din go to school. a feeling of mixed emotions i guess...

i'm bored. i dun even noe what to blog now.

things have been going in ways i wish i din want to now..

all i need is u now. being there for u is the onli i wanna do.

short post.

kenneth, signing out.

Oh I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night,
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light,
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight,
You're the first and last thing on my mind,
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

'Cos you bring out the best in me,
like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
'Cos you bring out the best in me,
like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
That's why I love you
'Cos you bring out the best in me,
like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
And that's why I love you

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh - oohh
In the script of my life

Someone once told me, old songs have meaningful lyrics while songs nowadays are crap. i somehow agree

Impulse

2008-07-03T04:14:00.000-07:00

YOYO PPL

Recently school started like a week ago.
my mother scolding liao cos i like everyday go circus la. sibei sian

i got nothing much to write but
Update on Impulse.

Current leader: Jeremy
Current vice leader: Shi Chang.

Leader to be: ME
Vice leader to be: Andy

Diabolo Leader: Jeremy, Me
Poi Leader: Zipei, Andy
Firestaff Leader: Jiaxuan
Firepoi leader: Andy
Fireoveralls Leader: Jeremy
Jokers:Me and Andy
Dancers: Me and Andy and Felicia and Zipei And Kailin And Huiyee

Thats all for now i guess

Laos yet again

2008-06-04T05:57:00.000-07:00

Sitting here, by the window on my com blogging

things have been running through my head.. so much things have happened yet i could just stand there and watch..

i remembered something, i made a promise to someone a very long long time ago. it was not to fight anymore and to forget my past of that road of hatred. lets just say the promise wld be broken soon.. i just dun no what to do now.

promises
lies
love
hatred
pain
anger
rage
sadistic
randomness.

i just dun get what i'm thinking now. Friends told me to not emo again. yet i knew i wouldn't be emo a while ago but the feeling of being emo is back even aft i thought i erased it already.

ok lets talk about something thats affecting the world.
The oil crisis!!!!
As u know, ppl are causing rampage over this matter because prices are going up but there is a reason behind it. If u want it in my view, i would say that having in increase would be a good and bad thing.. bad being we needa use more money to pay for using petrol and diesel. but the good thing is that we can help stop pollution and harm to the world.
this is my view.
i wanna hear your views for those who read this. tag it in my tagbox.

LAOS
I really miss laos and i know that everyone from ESpiration sure miss laos badly.
we the G's sure did. i hope benh recovers from his injuries soon.
TO ALL ESPIRATIONS, LETS ALL PLAN TO GO BACK TO LAOS AND LET MR NEU BE OUR GUIDE THERE XD. AND LETS ALL VISIT THE SCHOOL YET AGAIN.
I WANT MY PAPAYA SALAD..

thats all now..

life and lao

2008-06-01T08:17:00.000-07:00

back from laos already ppl..

not gonna blog about what happened there fully but i'm just gonna reflect on stuff.

Aft being on this trip, i've learned many things..

I just would wanna say the school was a veru enriching experience for me, it touched me in alot of ways. i really miss the guys back at the school, i love them all esp someone. haish, i just dun even noe if i can go back to just visit them, even just seeing them for awhile would be happy.

On friends
I've learned to appreciate my friends more now. i now know that i have such good friends with me and i would appreciate them more now and also i would spend as much time with them as i could. i grew even closer to my friends after this trip yet i saw the true colours of some ppl now.

on family,
Afting going on this trip, i've learned to appreciate my family members more and come to apprecite all the little things they have done for me and also to takecare and spend time with them more.

Laos school,
the ppl from the school were all so welcoming and friendly people.
i really miss them alot, they were all so united with each other
i really miss them, and they were all so sweet to have sent us of at the airport,.

i can say all this for now onli.

time

2008-05-11T23:02:00.000-07:00

hey there..

i very the sian now. and currently in the midst of impulse design..

i still want do my ex calibur..
infinity also.

for laos the performance, its like 2 weeks left, i dun even noe if will it be a nice one? but as jem said, no performance is ever perfect unless u are so pro with it..

i feel so stupid now. no matter how i apologise, it will never work, all went down the drain just like that. i was foolish,
i noe i used to be selfish but would all this be worth it? i dun no now. all i want is to be left alone awhile, and no worries, i ain;t emo alr, i won;t be emo...

HERE ARE SOME VIDEOS,

nee san!

2008-05-10T00:43:00.000-07:00

hey all

its been dam long since i blogged.
nth much to say la actually.

i feel like deleting my blog liao. but shall not cos gonna rite more impulse stuff inside.

okies. about impulse. i hope can come out with the design by monday as i told all by monday shld be out. but currently got problems.

props currently i noe:
-Diabolo
-Poi
-sort of fire staff
-abit of flower sticks
-unpassable juggling

skills i wanna learn
-Fire contact (actually sort of learning already)
-Contact diabolo
-Fire Blowing
-Fire Eating

thats all for the tricks i wanna noe.
i can't believe aft 70 attempts, i still can't do excalibur.

so tired now. currently all songs in my head are japanese. Due to my Dearest chelsea Nee-San for sending me all the jap songs.. lols, see nee san, i got rite yr name leh..
and all the best neesan.. u shld noe what i mean ^^.

now nee san the hana kagari keep ringing in my head.

AND GOING LAOS SOON
shld i be happy or sad. i really shld feel happy yet i'm having this ache to..
i dunno what my mind is think now. haish

aiya watever la. snap out of it, must be positive also.

and sianned, tomolo got family carnival, taekwondo must go, maam ask me and the rest to go cos need 30 peeps

Yesterday Is History , Tomorrow Is A Mystery, Today Is A GIFT, Thats Why Its Called The Present...
Cherish your loved ones before its too late. and dun regret if its too late.
haish

kenshiowen signing off

speech day

2008-04-19T08:48:00.000-07:00

its a rare case i blog now.

I DO IT FOR SPEECH DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so morning go schl, sian sian.
then went hoem at 10.30 but in the end was 45 as had to collect art exam paper

when home then aft which went to yuyang house. he lols, sick then nvr go schl. was o2jamming at his house.
then at 1 i headed to schl.
left bag at impulse there then headed to drama/ =(

cassandra came and also it was the seniors last performance..

then performance ended. me jolene zavier all chiong to wash make up and change for impulse

later on aft performance, everything was fun. but we had a casualty. angela burned her face. but then we had pizza. and also it was late and dark in school, i and andy use bike rider around the parade square. he stand behind, i rode and he was swingin the light staff everywhere

i somehow lost the blogging spirit.
so kenshiowen signing off

time

2008-04-05T09:35:00.000-07:00

i hardly blog now alr.

so i shall blog a short part..

i've learned a lesson.

YESTERDAY is history, TOMORROW is a mystery, TODAY is a gift, thats y its called the present.

circus arts rocks big time. noeing trick aft trick. its the excitement of mastering a trick and the satisfaction aft noeing it.

and someone just sucks big time.

kenren off

life

2008-03-05T01:53:00.000-08:00

its been a very long while since i blogged.

dunno what to blog la,

recently met with an old fren, frm tkd.
chunsee
teng sian, yuyang, oso noe her. cos same pri school

okies la. din really have ani things happened in class. just things that happen in the class, stays in it and i do not want to tok about my class when i'm outside

1 week more and i'll be off to thailand..

circus was fun as usual but with some ppl there no, keep kaopeing say can go home anot? can go home anot?
then competition for the 1t1s and 2t1s that join us. i ethan and jeremy and knik and gretchen and yanzhi and laura we all stand in one circle then we threw the diabolo. i was the 3rd highest. 1st was ethan with his super gay throw at a dam high height. then its jeremy.. lolz. all high one. then mine was third highest.
jeremy ask me learn vortex. then now trying, as i already learn front and back sun le.

i've been through think over these few days of things la.

As time go by, we just tend to be more mature and lets just say we are now more wary of what we are doing and we tend to think before we do or speak on things.
i now look back in my past aft seeing those little kids playing at giant. i still think of how childish i was in the past still disturbing ppl or doing stupid things. but what to do, as i was still young, maturity hasn't happen yet i guess. but i just laugh thinking of what i use to do. but its just the past ani way.
the leap years. i heard something frm it while dreaming on the bus;

its better to have loved and lost then never to have loved before

many thoughts went through my mind when i heard this.. i dunno what i gonna do now.
lets say many things went through my head, thinking of so much things, life the past and the present and the future.

so thats all for blogging now.

kenshiowen

chingay

2008-02-18T01:30:00.000-08:00

chingay rox man..
aft schl just went straight home then bath then met jl at interchange. but first i met jiaxuan then feli then zipei.. jianglong came last. then headed to taka to buy comics first. aft that makan.. then we headed to city hall then to chingay..

i shall let pics do the toking today

one man one universe

healthcare thing

my ferraris and lambo

Lion Dance

AND AFT SO LONG I SEE A FAMILIAR FACE

fiddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

competition

2008-02-12T02:19:00.000-08:00

ok here is my post, my blogging due to some keeper spamming me to tag. so here it is ar. ETHAN LEE. STOP SPAMMING ME. I WILL BLOG LIKE EVERY ONCE IN AWHILE. SO JUST WAIT. okies there.,

i'm sianned. just came back frm training in schl. knik wasn;t here then the seniors, J.B.W.E.E.F, tot no training then say want go 321 but due to time we stay in schl and there was announcement that theres training lor.. zz.zzZZz.z
oh yah. i'm happy, very happy.
finally aft 3 months, i learned sun to the back and loop the waist.. yay. can do 3 consecutive loops alr..
and i finally can do 3 beat weave. yay. double happiness..

will tok about new year celebrations.

wednesday. aft new year performance. which was 90% succesful, impulse went bowling!!! ben quoted in his blog he owned all of us. but i onli lost to him by 16 points.!@$!#!@#!@. then huiyee first time play.. she go the alley there. swing,
the ball rolled straight then she tyco tyco strike. lolz
then had family dinner in the night.. fun!!!

then on thursday.. went on visiting , first my ah gong there.. then aft which i went to my aunty's hse. sianned, jean jie doing her stuff, jasmine jie sleeping. but nvm then. jasmine jie got a whole shelf. and not just one but alot. of comics. she got dgrayman!!!!.. read book 12. lolz. i noe what happen to krory and allen's new innocence le. lolol

forgot did what foir friday

saturday night.. went to aunty's hse again for steamboat. lol, cos got too many ppl, then she made 2 steamboat.. ate and had alot of fun.. then around 8, went with ah ching kor, jasmine jie, jean jie, and si-en mei to ktv. lolz. sang till 1.. so fun..
then saturday

then sunday i went to another aunty's hse for family gathering again. more food again. lolz.

that shld be it ba.
kenshiowen signing off

memories

2008-01-22T02:04:00.000-08:00

hey there.

just came back frm impulse training. knik made us train throw and catch, passing and two diabolo passing. i almost get the front and back sun under the waist one liao. shiok bodoh.
just doing random blogging since some mushroom say i mia and my blog the tag has been alive due to a keeper. lol so sian. and i got a new wife and its red in colour.. mushroom's hair now is dam weird. lol..
school nth much happen la. stuff i dun wanna tok about too. gret noes la.

i deeply miss her now. haish.. i deeply deeply really miss her alot.
haish, sadded sia. dunno what to do. i dun dare let the others noe. even my that buddy in class mia liao. dunno where he go

this shall be short for today.

awhile liao lo

2008-01-11T03:33:00.000-08:00

hey guys.

been dam long. since i updated.
so a happy new year. very belated one
lol

3E3 has been dam fun.. we have great teachers.
heres the list for the class.
Chairperson : Hamizan again!
Vice chair: Shazreen (shld be spelt wrong i think)
Form Cher: Mdm Teo
Form tutor: Mr Wong
Maths: Mdm Wong
P.E: Mr Tan again..
Physics: Ms Sakinah xD
Chemistry: Ms Ng
Social Studies: Ms Wani
Eng: Mdm Teo.
Geography: ms rafiqah for the time being
POA: Mr Teo
Mt: Mr lin
Art: Mdm Shaha/ Ms Shaha. WOOTS AGN!!!
so its like that.
and sitting beside my is khairunnisa then behind is hamizan then infront is that always stare at me with the gay face yuyang. lolz. surrounded by E4z. then got a new fren. lols. natalie. that saikang. hamizan and me always disiao her.

Recently keep hearing japanese songs frm den-o, D.Gray-Man, Then oso got drummania one.. hands are itchy. dam long bo play drums. nat also wanna learn drums.
My blog died long ago but revive today due to many ppl ask me update and ethan was the one hu spammed.

Lets talk bout circus arts now.. lol. now oso part of fire staff. lol. i want to learn contact fire. lol. just now at the bus stop. i take the lighter. on it then use my finger take out the fire. keep doing that. lol boliao.
and oh great. all lvl 1 are back fr lvl 2.. but i and gret and laura the most noe in diabolo one.. i still learning infinity.. 3 weeks left for sec 1 the demo. 2 and a half months left before competition.. fack la. alot of things to do..

Drama time now.
Today dam cool la drama.. we all so hyper then we also folo hanna one method which became our drama signature move.. sec 1. lol. i was with a kid name shannon. lolz.
Ever since ms selina was back, Drama becames more lively, and we express ourselves more. but oso abit lose control la.
Heard a story bout someone. then that someone oso got tell me what happen. i told him/her (make a guess) that life is just like that la.. full of ups and down. i understand what he/she feels. roughly the same with my time when sec 1. when i was all emo emo. sad sad. but its alrite la. i can understand how that person feels.

now bout someone.
i miss her alot. really alot. can't seem to feel myself around her. love her alot. i haven't chat with her in awhile le. wonder what shes doing??
dunno la sianned. onli some noe its hu. but i do not wish to speak of it le.

kenshiowen signing off
wow. i wrote alot.

competition

2007-12-14T10:28:00.000-08:00

boliao now. feel like blogging.
2.30 in the morning

just heard bout a news.
i, gretchen, laura is being sent for a diabolo competition. solo one. diabolo catergory.
piggy say its diabolo ladder. trick by trick. if dunno means fail. lol. nervous.

i tot got what thing sia like own routine. zZzz. then one more is if jay play the song, must on the spot play. sianned.

i nth much to rite though. oh yah that day i went to takashimaya. i bought a master grade double zeta gundam!!!!!!! was super cheap cos of sale. 45 bucks! cheap liao lo. i oso got the photos as there got gundam exibits frm the competition one. got some dam super nice. shall post the pics soon.

signing off. kenren

long time

2007-12-10T17:08:00.000-08:00

Legacy Of East Spring Circus arts. Impulse!

It truly is been awhile since i last blog. i await for a holiday. anione wanna bring me go??

this post maybe long as i din blog for bout a month.

As of 2E4 bbq.

Everything was greadt in the bbq. we had water bombs. there were missing teachers frm our bbq.

Ms ong: i wanted to invite her but no one tell me. even though i asked them again and again.

Mr syazwan: dunno where he.

Mr chia: half way across the world

My azwan : dunno where he

Ms sng: dunno where.

but some teachers were there too. Mdm shaha and her baby was there. cool. Ms chua was there. mr thia too. mdm noraidah oso. lol.

i went there with faizul and wk and his lil bro.

so was the bbq. i and aaron and mr thia see at the table there just chating listening to songs. syazana was with us too. i ate my first plate of food that day even though i was not hungry that day for no reason.

Hamizan took awhile. a very long while for his speech as our chairperson. touching la fren.

thats all for the bbq.

I got posted into 3E3. who i now noe in same class as me is. Khairunissa, hamizan, yuyang, nicholson, nasuha, claudia, huiying, tyngyuan, nicholas goh (2E1,07), nicholas goh(2e3.07), and i forgot who liao. i noe got a few more frm my class..

now for circus arts..

diabolo lvl2 routine got taken off as all 4 nvr go for the rehersal.

i almost master infinite suicide. lol.

East spring combo, still learning prt 1, part 2, part3, part 4.

Shall we honour the members who are leaving impulse?

Firstly the leader: Keeper, Ethan. the poi player who took 2 years to learn behind the back width

secondly. Bear: Ben. Our very own juggler.. the guy who knew behind the back with the first time he did it.

thirdly, Crab: Weisiang. the one who makes us laugh and our diabolo extrodinare

fourth, Piggy: Edward. the second pro diaboloist which strted the east spring combo.

and then fish: firdaus. he was suppose to go sec 5 but he going ite cos his choice.

he was another amazing poi player.

circus arts.

thats all. for now..

kenshiowen signing off.

nth

2007-11-21T11:29:00.000-08:00

its back to blogging!

really wish attend e149 cell grp meeting and church service, but due to some stuff, can't go. haish. its been awhile since i saw them.

haiyo la.

this few days still training infinite suicide,managed to go maximum speed with my old stick but string snapped,
learned christmas tree ytd, still working on front and back sun.
performance on 16 dec.

not much to rite though, tkd also long nvr go then finally go that day, sparring. shuang
normal and special class combined sparring, i sparred with a poom, scored some points.
heres a vid on tkd, the best knockouts.. ooh!

impulse

2007-11-15T06:56:00.000-08:00

Impulse!! circus arts was freaking fun ytd in the night.

lets see frm morning what i do.
morning go schl take results
went into 3E3 cool man. my dream class, i got into art, will see MISS shaha for the next two years.

then rushed home, changed liao, went to ethan hse, reach there liao, he changed, then went to Tmall, on the way there, i slipped and fell due to rainy weather .#@$#@$!@^&%$.
went there see ethan play para, he own the machine like hell, a few ppl see him play cos in morning onli ma. soon, edward and then ben came, went to ljs, i forgot to take fire staff frm arcade, i left it there. lol

we then go to 321 to train, laura came, then shuxian and jiaxuan, then gretchen and yanzhi. we train till bout 4 then went to ethan hse to slack till 7 then we knew we were late and then rushed to kallang, fish and weisiang was there alr. we started playing then fire jams begin. before i end, heres a vid for u guys to see.

NVR TRY THESE AT HOME AND ONLY DO IT IN CIRCUS ARTS

2007-10-26T11:20:00.000-07:00

back to blogging,

today is the last day of schl for the year and circus arts was made to perform for the whole schl. but like what jeremy said, no performance is perfect. and he gave wrong cd i think. btu eventually, impulse still put up a great performance.

aft performance, we stayed at foyer cos jay show us video on the diff props and how the ppl play la, the pros frm other countries. power sia. poi oso can use kung fu oso. then we all head to food court to makan. jay left liao but jacky with us. then aft makan, weisiang, jem, ethan, emo, edward went to lan then i tagged along to see. khairul then came to find me. i and the bangla khairul then head over to my hse to train diabolo for fun and i twisted my leg aft the performance and while the rest will be at lan then go city hall. so khairul teached me infinite suicide, front back sun, coffee grind, ufo grind and chinese whip. cool man. but i still haven't perfect it. i curse and swear on my underarm man.

thats really all for today la. nth much to rite. last day of schl. last day with 2E4. but nvr mind. we still got class bbq =]=]=]=]..

signing off

2007-10-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

Its back to blogging again. so sian.

its like just dunno what to say la this few days. good and bad things happened.

Friday

When down to the temple to help cos got the god bdae

The celebration was a big one. Many ppl came.

Got lion dance and dragon dance, gong guan, hue chia(floats). many things la. it started at bout 5 -6 then ended at round midnight.

i have some pics.

was a very tired day.

super tiring la.

Then now for sad stuff. My aunty got landed in court for maid abuse. it was in the papers on friday. but one thing i dun understand la. my aunty may be fussy, and she may scold ppl, but she wldn't abuse the maid one, physically la. shes a nice person leh my aunty. hopefully it will be a good ending. court hearing on wednesday.

ok ba, thats all i wanna rite for now.

will update soon.

signing off

ending

2007-10-15T03:16:00.000-07:00

Aft so long, i finally find the time to blog liao.

my blog is like super dead.

but many things have happened. i still can remember something. on 18th august i could go service with e149. they really surprised me with something. they help me celebrate birthday. i've got the pictures of the cake and card and the present. but its not in this com cos i using my uncle's laptop.

e149, now they are in sentosa enjoying themselves while i'm stuck at home. cos my dad the shifu, monk, come stay la, then my rm must leave to him. then my com oso in the rm then my uncle lend me his com. then i oso can't go sentosa with them. haish.

i really changed as a better person aft meeting E149. and two days ago, saturday, was adeline's bdae then we celebrated her bdae tgt with dora's bdae.

we saboed adeline and dora, operation fried fish, we threw eggs, flour and water on them.

its like super sian now. i got nth much to do. i'm super bored.

i really got nth to do.

i've been training my diabolo tricks whenever i free, i underleg onli can do a few rounds, underarm i modified abit.

i will update again soon. so seeya

and one pic.

2007-08-18T08:43:00.000-07:00

Today is a very happi day for me. ver happi. i must thnk e149 for this. shall blog tomolo.

mmrs

2007-08-09T21:27:00.000-07:00

time to blog.

Day b4 ytd.
The national day celebrations. i and zhenyu we walked all the way to schl cos he got no money take bus then when we reached schl, it was still early,
then aft flag raising ceremony, i, zhenyu, khairil, aaron, we went to hall for the superstar competition. we sang facedown. we dedicated that song to mr chia for teaching us for the past half year and also being a very gd form tutor. then all the sing sing and all the skit.
then aft the celebration, i and zhenyu we went to the foodcourt. saw alot of ppl there. and aft that i went home, zhenyu went lan. i then went to bugis with kaiyi, yang, pinsheng, aloy and david. we watched rush hour 3. its a must watch.
aft that we went back to Tmart to eat. i and david saw our pri schl fren, she changed alot sia. i then went to ah gong hse cos cuzzin got car then oso can fetch me home ma and also visit ah gong..

Ytd.
woke up then went to shower aft that, 1 pm went with tong, yanxu, jaghpaal to bedok interchange to meet xinyu and others. then xinyu bring us to somewhere we nvr go b4. rina's hse. then we meet new frens there, then skip skip skip. i met xianbi there. jagh and yan left early cos both kena called home. then left me and tong, we onli knew xinyu, adeline, yeeling and also xianbi. then we aft that, headed over to sheng siong to buy stuff for bbq. i, tong and xianbi we went to buy the charcoal. then we toked bout dota and cs. now theres one person to join us in laning. then we met siew keong and ian, then now more ppl to go lan with already. we toked more bout cs. ok then i carried for xianbi his guitar all the way to the beach. then it was great meeting them. then bbq, and we played some games too. ok then i aft that i knew benson cos we have the same interest, FINALLY, i found someone hu has the same interest in me. den-o, faiz, kabuto, them we lamed the ppl hu were sitting under the shelter especially ian. then ok, we sent siew keong back to bus stop. then we toked alot of things. i found out that ian had a phobia that i din noe ppl wld have. then we talked bout horror movies. ok so blah blah blah. then its was bout 9.30 already, so i and tong had to leave. xianbi brought us to the bus stop and waited the bus with us. we 3 had a nice chat, xianbi at least told me some words i won't forget la. i'll try to study harder.

then now i'm stuck at home. waiting for time to pass to go to wedding dinner. nxt month jeslin jie getting married liao. then i think my mom said wilson kor will be married nxt year. and nxt month oso gt performance at clarke quay. the circus arts performance. i still can't decide sia. diabolo or poi. i'm still working on my diabolo speed loop.

ok la, i shall end here already.
kenshiowen signing off.

Lost

2007-07-27T08:01:00.000-07:00

Its a new post.

haish, i'm really stuck at my wits end now.
i dunno what to do sia.
sometimes i feel happi, sometimes i feel sad.
i dunno. i just dunno.
Shld i even trust myself?
i just dun no.
I lost trust in some ppl. i just dunno what to do.

Haish.
i now think that she hates me now. i think cos i told her i like her, then now i think she hates me la. haish, what to do.

i can onli confide in one fren hu really noes me well. jl.
he noes whats going on now la.
..
..

Today in class, the whole class made mr thia hurt cos we din do well in the test and the workbook, not everyone ans the question fully. he was like dam sad la.

then in lit, mr chia made us listen to superman by five for fighting. quite nice la.

and wish me, khairil, aaron, zhenyu, luck for the es superstar. we'll be singing... guess it urself.
Some ppl may noe already cos this few days, we keep singing that song in class. shikin they all shld noe la. cos when we sing, they everytime look at us.

ok ba. i'll stop here.

kenren signing off

confession

2007-07-20T09:17:00.000-07:00

its been awhile since i wrote and entry,

i dam long nvr post liao.

i really dam bored now.

i'm falling to sleep in class, and i dun even noe whether i wanna quit drama anot, then its like alot of ppl in drama noe. the sec 1s, they tot i quit liao. just cos i nvr come on wed. and i kena on probation by mdm sugu. cos i bring hp that thing, then cos she put me as secretary for drama then now i on probation to se i still deserve that place anot. but i dun mind not being secretary lor. i just like acting la.

i now tuning into the rihanna live earth performance for umbrella. u must hear it la, i played the video but not watching it. hear the sounds. how the music is.
go watch it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VL4y5lJzlv8

that day, i went to MOE excel fest at singapore chinese girls schl cos kena selected. the ppl hu went were
clinton, me, razeef, hanna, aaron, zul, tiara, josephine and nabilah.
i, zul, tiara and nabilah, we took ms selina's car. waseh, opel sia.
then ms selina was playing the mika album then now i oso like mika liao.
it was abit of a tiring day la the moe excel fest.

i now go to lan le.
i that day went back arcade, i totally lost my outrun skills. i couldn't drift well animore. then my maximum tune at least onli downgrade abit.
i nw at lan alwaes play cs with zhenyu yang they all.
i pool day rocker. then i and zhenyu we team cs assault then gd seh.

I already told her already,
i confessed to her i like her
i've said it already. she seemed to like knew long ago liao le lor.
haish, onli 3 ppl noe i like her.
those 3 are my trusted frens.

i seriously think, i beginning to lose control of myself liao le.
i now just snapped at the slightest things and i can control myself liao.
i realised i've been looking now on myself for way too long.
hoeyin was rite.
i won't give up on things and myself that easily liao. i'll work hard till the end.

thats all ba.
kenren signin off

the dream

2007-07-07T09:37:00.000-07:00

i am like now dam emo shit la.

my hols were abit tiring la. but went to genting was fun.

i ytd nite had a dream.
it felt dam real and if it ever happen for myself, i will nvr ever be able to take it.
the blow in my dream, it felt real, too real. i just noe that when i woke up,
my heart was aching and badly aching.
i just dun wanna say it animore. i told jl it but i din noe y, when i explained to him it, i just din noe how to tell him it cos its was just confusing if i told it out.
but if it really ever happens, i'll just nvr be able to go tkd again. just nvr.
the fact of losing someone is just too hard for me la.

i've got nth else to say.

Kenren

2007-06-18T14:29:00.000-07:00

I dun no y la. but i'm here blogging now, its like 5.30 in the morning.
i'll be leaving soon. my whole family is still asleep. onli i am awake le.

i just wanna tok bout the world today. i just dun understand y man.
As u all noe, god has the power to say if someone dies or not but one thing. y is he leaving the bad ppl around and taking away gd ppl. leave the bad and take the gd. fcuk man.

haish i just dunno la.
I'm getting stronger at tkd. my kicks are fast and strong but not really that strong yet. chingkai, zi heng, my dad or tell me to work harder then nxt time i go sparring easier le. then ah kai oso said that hwarang the sparring very hiong. once strt then they all kick non stop liao. i today i is like kick dam fast la. then mam saw liao say gd. i super fast with turning kick and then folo by back trust. Then mam ask me, jolene and soonliang the neh neh king go sunday class, the sparring one
i just wanna train hard, prove myself la. prove to someone smt.

thats all ba.
BTW, ZOEY JIE,IF U SEE THIS, PLS TAG

Kenren
Legender, One Hand Drifter

gone

2007-06-18T09:40:00.000-07:00

I'll be leaving this place le. in a few more hours time. its now 12.41 a few more hours and i'll be leaving. and not coming back soon.

back again

2007-06-06T08:47:00.000-07:00

finally i have time or feel like blogging.

been very lazy to update.

shall blog frm the beginning.

Camp first day:

first day of camp
MORNING: Had breakfast in class cos it was breakfast with cher day or smt, then eat liao, clean class abit then camp briefing. they tot us the camp claps like gu niang clap, macho clap, haha clap and hehe clap etc etc. then must make camp poster. my grp, BLUE SAVIOUR 21. cos was actually saviour 21 then we all use blue inkthen tiff, our camp instructress, told us y dun rite blue saviour 21. and its was khairunnisa hu wrote the three big words. tnks alot khai. then the whole grp rite y they want achieve in the camp or smt, then i and amirul a.k.a bangala decorate the paper. we draw tiff then oso i go rite, blue saviour 21, ppl save us not we save them. lol. then nxt stop dragon boating!! yay

AFTNOON: Dragonboating at the kallang dragon boat centre or smt..
woots dragonboat for half a day, we all water fight sia, one boat vs the other. then tiff the contact lens tore cos kena water splash. my team won the Race cos we all paddled tgt. woots .we won. then we headed over to the stadium to change to dry clothes. and yah throughout the whole jour frm schl to kallang and kallang to camp, i sat with yang and with ms ng infront of us. then we do the absailling and rock climbing back at camp. yang became the absailing instructer the helper and he kena call maria by him and the rock wall actually climbed 3/4 of the rock wall liao. then he wanted to stop then i shout tell him carry on la, then he say no energy liao. then he still climbed and made it to the top and we ppl below, guided him all the way up.

NIGHT:we went for night walk, abit dark la, somemore i pah chiu ta stamp, lucky got zhi hao guide us cos he can see in the dark dark there.

Camp day 2

morning. woke up then we went for our rope activities. i felt dam disappointed with my self. i only left one step left to complete the rope challenge. but i just let my tired ness gave way. i oso dissapointed of the rock climb cos i knew i could do it but i gave up again.

aftnoon:went to climb bukit timah hill. dam bloody tiring. but i am happy cos i made an accomplishment, i climbed bukit timah hill all the way to the summit.
then we went back, to change and for camp fire!!
woots. camp fire dam fun.my grp cheer:
Girl(amirul) comes running, bird seller(me) sits there
girl:my bro is going on a journey, i wanna buy 2 birds
bird seller:but theres onli enough for one bird.
girl: ok
girl bumps into aguy(zhi hao)
aiyah its the visa ad la.lazy to type.
then all birds fly( grp 1 and 2 peepz).
once a papa met a mama under the mango tree then the papa ask the mama,
will u marry me
then the mama told the papa
u are so ugly.
then the papa told the mama
ai seh baby.
surangani surangani surangani ke ma le ke lava. ma le ma le ma le, surangani ke le surangani ke ma le ke la va, ah ma.
then the bimbo clap, i forgot it cos i din even wanna remember it.

day 3
morning: did the challenge thing. my grp won 15 mins break.
then aft that wash toilet wash the dorms. my grp and seto grp, i forgot wat number, wash and clean dorm 4, the girls one. chua sai. i one person clean dorm 4A. level one and 2. fuck sia. then i, kenneth ah cheng and terence we 3 clean toilet with the help of another instrudtress then we play water fight cos we refilling water then toilet almost finish le. it was fun, then i spray water at tiff.

then aftnoon we went home le. so sad, we all miss tiff. but still, HUAT LA.

then on mon, went out with tong as usual, to soccer court. and i have a new jie, ZOEY JIE

on tues i was dam sick, once i woke up at 8, i had head ache, body ache, flu, fever. i saw the docter at 4 then i slpt and woke up the nxt day in the night and i din even rmb i had my dinner and lunch cos i din eat much and i was half consious. i only recover half by the third day and u noe what, the fourth day, i slight better le, my father pulled me and my mum with him to tong ka malaysia to pei him cos he going there to tiao dang. so then i came back onli 2 days later and u noe what, my sickness came back again and i had difficulty breathing at one point in the car cos got jam then we were stuck for one hour.

for got what happen till today.
usual, went to my dad shop, helped out then i smsed with zoey jie. haish i told her bout my past the previous. cos i told her, i may need to go back to my past le cos i may go to a fight and may nvr come back. then she scolded me lor. haish. i promised her that i will nvr go back to my past and nvr to fight again.

thats all till here ba.

Kenren signing out

back

2007-05-23T02:05:00.000-07:00

sorry for late post. i have been bugging lazy to update my blog sia

i dam lazy to type, and i added a song list to my blog<<<<<.

for jiayin, my blog the pic shift down cos of the song playlist.
i wanna change skin soon.

shall strt with blogging.

i sort of forgot all of the past the stuff. so shall strt with ytd
ytd the whole day in schl was "movie day" cos during lit, we watched finish bride and prejudice. its a dam gd show, esp with the singing and dancing prt.
then MT, we watched abit of just follow law. then in history, we watched a beautiful mind where a maths person, or i think its called a mathician or smt. had gone mad over thinking bout a math question and oso we did not finish the movie. then oso in eng we watched an inconvenient truth where its based on the true story of al gore, the us vp. he was wanting to save the world so he gave toks on the environment.

then today, not much happen la. onli today i very not gd with hoeyin, firstly, the sci proj, he say his grp first to choose q25 but we comfirmed with cher q25 and he wrote it on the board that we used that q then hoeyin ask our grp to change then we say no.
then chi proj, i asked faizul in the morning during assembly then he say he asked faizul first two days ago. i was liked watever la, then we let faizul choose then he say join my grp and oso said that he dun rmb hoeyin got ask him to join.

so as fr the class bbq it was dam fun but food not full. so we played games, many games. and u noe what, mr chia and mr syazwan they both must do chicken dance. so funny sia. but one thing was that i din noe y la, but i was emoing abit during the bbq. i sat on a rock, had my coke, stared at the sea. but overrall was dam fun la the bbq

ok la. i write till here ba.

Kenren signing out

sian

2007-05-07T03:21:00.001-07:00

woosh. just came back not long ago frm simei, playing street soccer. dam it sia, my leg got blister liao cos the ground there on the court dam bloody then burn my leg there, blister then have lor.
i dam sian, maths paper today, may not pass lor. then tomolo sci, aft that can relax abit cos onli left mt paper 2 and art. woots.
OMFG art prepartory work haven't done sia.

i dam sian la. i dun no y sia, i like always wanna go TKD lor, but today exceptional, no feeling to go cos tomolo sci, and oso, soonliang maybe not there, chingkai oso not, matt i dunno, then germaine oso not there.
so i today pon.

i got nth much to do.
i 'm still trying to find that song for germaine niece,
eh niece, i still trying my best.

i got nth much to rite sia. so that be all for now.

Kenren signing out
Emo Passion Turn Generation

sian

2007-05-07T03:21:00.000-07:00

tkd

2007-05-05T08:41:00.000-07:00

hello. i'm back to blogging.
i just dunno y, i feel like i am nt that frequent blogger i used to be la.
i used to blog alot lor.
aiyah dun care la.
i dam sian la everytime.
i alwaes can't wait to go tkd cos all my gd frens are there.
there got, ruben, amber(or germaine), chingkai, matthew, soonliang, jolene etc etc
i learned alot in tkd and oso had gd frens there.
i regreted not joining early.

haish. many fun times in TKD.

then its still the exam season, and u noe what. I AM STILL GOING TO THE ARCADE!!.~.~. maximum tune the skills, improve dam dam dam dam dam alot.

i got nth much to write. thats all ba, I love TKD

Kenren Emo Passion Turn Generation signing out

sickening

2007-04-30T08:16:00.000-07:00

life is dam bloody horrible to me. bugging hell,
sickening la life, i see her everyday in schl, but she chooses not to tok to me.
aaron, maybe yr rite, maybe its just that both of us are not fated to be loved by someone we loved deeply, sickening, exam coming soon.
i now dunno y, i dis few days dam pissed off with some stuff, pissed off as in dam pissed.
i now dam fed up liao.
family, may break up soon.
love, gone case liao la, i'm strting to lose hope.
frens, losing old ones, gaining new ones.
sickening la.
i really wanna end my life liao.
i go, no one will miss me ya?
as u see, the newspaper, one by one, ppl die, when is it gonna be my turn??
maybe soon, maybe not, dun get ur hopes too high in life, life is unpredictable.
treasure it while u can? treasure ppl u love now, u'll regret it when it is too late

i'm done, gone liao

sian

2007-04-27T22:19:00.000-07:00

sian sia. now going to exams liao lor.

now on msn toking, to three ppl, tree types of emotion.
close fren, fren, best fren.

sickening la, got one junior i dam kan bu shun yan. but still nto as bad as that sickening benjamin. somemore that idiot is really idiotically shortening( are this two words even words?) short.

haish, learn the truth bout something again. now that girl, told someone to tel me smt. haish, something that happened, happened again. how i wish things wld nvr be this way, i really love her. but i still can't bear to lose her. history repeated again.

later must head down to yishun to work again. sian.

outrun skilss still maintaining as top, i now can be considered real pro liao cos the right lane where all the hard tracks are. then maximum tune can ok ok. but what is till sux abit in is initial D and i plan to maybe stop my career in intial D.

and ma, its not ur fault la, ur not stupid or aniting, so just lax lax la. dun care bout those ppl. now just care for ur self can liao, and exams coming le. jiaoyou hor.

Kenren goner

back

2007-04-25T04:11:00.000-07:00

its been long since i blogged. was lazy to update.
haish, schools been dam sian this few days, onli got some stuff to do, and exam is like coming soon la. dam sian. then now i like a new girl. onli some ppl noe onli.
people hu noe are aaron(of course he noe la. my one gd brother.), Tongkhee( another one gd bro). weilee LAOma(another one hu i really trust.), Bryan(can trust de la. he no bau toh kia and onli he, aaron ma and tong noe the most of what happening)claud, jl, seehui,jiayin,yang, zhen. and i think thats all. sian sia life,

found another girl that i liked. but now i dam sian liao la. shes ignoring me cos she knew and not i tell her de lor. dam arsed.

she is like hardly online de lor, so she won't be able to see this, i just wanna tell her.

gurl, i'm srry if i did anithing to u. but i did not do anithing, i just wanna do smt gd for u, i just wanna send u home everyday, make sure ur safely at home, i noe u dun believe me of what i said bout him, he is evil, he's someone hu is do not judge a bk by a cover person. i really hope u believe me. i dun anithing to happen to u. cos i will not bear the fact TO LOSE U. I LOVE U TRUELY, I JUST SEEM TO FACE THE FACT OF LOSING U ANI DAY. everyday, i wanna tok to u but u ignore me, but everytime i di siao u, my heart aches. then even if u hate me, i'll still love u. i really do. i wish that u wld still tok to me like a fren, i just dun wanna lose u. i really love u that much. i hope u will accept me. nvm if u dun wanna tok to me. i just wanna tell u that i love u and seeing u smile everyday will make me happy. just seeing u with that smile.

ok ba rite until here. and yah, this is for my ma, YO wl LAO ZHU ma

Kenren Emo Passion Turn Generation

sianz

2007-04-11T05:33:00.000-07:00

hey everyone.

shall resume blogging again.
today aft cca, sort of spar with kaiyi then aft that i spar with jl,
its been awhile since i sparred.
i just dunno y, i this few days, i'm beginning to strt losing control. its been dam long since i ever lost control of myself.
i now dam confused.
shld i still be frens with those two, dam ass la. onli lao ma wld noe hu these 2 are. sian la.
i am losing control over myself again.
i today oso punch them la. ALMOST but didn't.

sian. and btw ma, takecare k?

Kenren Gone Going
Emo Passion Turn Generation

SYF

2007-04-03T04:58:00.000-07:00

Today was Syf.
We all did our best, we were more focus than the rehersals, we were more loud, and we had more emotions.

i took some pics
Oh isn't that docter TK Yeo yoyoyo in da hse
Me and zul
The "cute" diyanah

My Gangster Family
The blur electric guitar player, without him, there wld be no guitar and this was taken on sat.

(P.S: Ma if u are reading this, just to tell u that the scene where pa must slap me, act slap la, he really go and slap me hard sia, can hear the piak sound.)

Haish. its is just me or y, y is my heart so pain when i come to think of that something. i nvr felt this pain b4, seriously, i nvr felt this pain in my heart b4 and it has nth to do with me giving up her, i oso just dunno y my heart is so pain. it really hurts, this pain just keeps coming back. i just dunno why my heart is so pain, onli ma and bryan noe the reason behind the pain. Jiayin was rite, she really was rite about something

Kenren Emo Passion To generation

sian

2007-04-01T06:01:00.000-07:00

reblogging

i just don't noe whats gotten into me this few days,

i just wanna say

To everyone hu said they wanna die, FK u all man, alwaes say die, even if death shall come, i shld be the first to go, not u all.

To my Gan ma wl
Ma, i noe u care alot
u tell me not too be emo
u scolded me when i was sick and waited for u in schl
but being emo, its just diff for me.
i just feel pain, so let me have abit of alone time first k?
i just dunno y i am feeling pain in my heart. i jus dunno y.
its something i nvr felt so pain b4.

To my pa J
Eh pa
i noe what situation u are in now.
i noe its hard for u,
u say no one cares liao. but one thing, u still have us, u stil have me, ma, chels, all the rest. dun think bout it liao k?
want to go, oso i go first

i've nth left to say. i really have nth left

Kenren Emo Passion To Generation

gone

2007-03-31T22:42:00.001-07:00

heyz
i'm back.

haish, it was tough forgetting her, but i just had to forget her.
i said those three words, it ended, all those promises, just gone.
but the past, the pasts.
Some ppl said it was gd to continue going aft her
Some ppl said i was a fool to still going on aft her so long.
it was tough forgetting her. haish.

nah i shall not tok bout it ani more. the past is the past

will be continued.
i just can't concentrate.
my mind is full with alot of stuff

Kenren Emo Passion To Generation

2007-03-26T02:43:00.000-07:00

Yo Everyone

i'm back on blogging. i shall blog a short one and after i'm done remaking my blog,
i will continue blogging.

i have a new pa and ma.
gan one la

KenRen ShioDa WenYe
Kenji's back
gone going

2007-01-19T07:46:00.000-08:00

Its been awhile since i blogged
Finally, i not lazy and decide to rite.

shall strt bout the trip out with the gang.
Aftnoon, went to meet jun and jl first then we cross the road to cs there, met with claud they all but i jl and jun we go Tmall to folo jl go meet someone. in the end i and hao ps him and jl folowed. then i totally dominated at initial D. then i was like playing Tc II then the whole gang go stand beside me kajiao, then jl go block my screen. but b4 that, got two girls wanna play, but they saw that i got alot of life left, they pek chek then leave liao. NG JIANGLONG U OWE ME 10 BUCKS FER THE GEAR SHIFT OF THE CAR. U DUN BUGGER AND GO AND SAY WHERE GOT OWE ME.

then aft that, we headed over to safra fer a game of pool.
then jl went to write his name on the list fer booking of tables.
then we went to the arcade nxt door to play. i lost to jl at daytonaT_T. nvm i shall practise. and i lost to him is in advance. i am still in training hor fer advance.
then aft that i onli shot a few times in the pool game then i left liao cos mum was nagging. and i heard that seto, while shooting a ball, he hit too hard and the white ball fly and hitted jl in the nuts. (jl u deserve it cos u pay me the ten bucks!!!!)

Oh yah, and b4 going out, there was the sec 1 cca recruitment. i and jeremy, we stand at our stall and shout and shout until no voice. worst still, drama was beside choir. and the shouting was like, Me and zul, and jeremy VS aaron and firz. my throat no voice liao, then i still challenge aaron shout loudest. aft all those, it was Choir and Drama promote together. then Drama and malay dance. then aft that, scouts, band, drama, malay dance combine and in the center of hall promote. got the video on youtube. Kaiyi is oso in the vid wearing ncc uni.

oh yah and i strting to turn colour blind liao. seriously.

i recently found something. shall up load it.

-I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
-I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care.
-I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. -I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
-I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes, after that, you'd better know something.
-I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do,but to the best you can do.
-I've learned that it's not what happens to people, it's what they do about it.
-I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
-I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.It may be the last time you'll see them.
-I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
-I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
-I've learned that there are people, who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
-I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
-I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance same goes for true love.
-I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
-I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
-I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
-I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other and just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
-I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.
-I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
-I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get further in life.
-I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
-I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
-I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
-I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.
-I've learned to love and be loved.

time to be personal again.
recently, one pk come find me prob cos i call his name then he not happy. but aaron and jun helping me liao. so no need worry so much

If onli u, girl, knew how much u mean to me. to me, u are my life, without u, i got no reason to carry on. i noe i may not be the rite one fer u but i jus want u to noe that i love u and very much need u. if onli if u really knew what i really feel bout u.

i shall end here. and i got a new nick. sian boy cos i owaes say SIAN!!!!.
done gone and i'm changing skin

2007-01-04T03:09:00.000-08:00

A new year
A new beginning
A new chapter of life

not much to blog but what i noe is that my chers and classroom level changed.
Form cher: Ms Ng (but now change to mdm shaha)
Form tutor: Mr Chia
Eng: Mr syazwan
Sci: Mr Thia
Maths: Mrs tan (ok la not so bad la. mrs tan)
Chinese: Mdm liu. Bo change but now she shift hse to opp of my hse T_T.
P.E: Mr teo. not mr lance teo
D&T: Mdm wong, Ms ng, Mrs lim
History: Ms Adlin
Geog: Haven, nxt semester
Home Econs: Nxt semester
Lit:Mr chia.

shall say bout today. all is aft schl happen

I and aaron went to mc to relax and eat then kaiyi later came and join. then aft eating, saw claudia and huiying outside. then went to bubble tea shop. then claud buy fish balls what, she was like eating then got one fishball on the stick, which she bited half waythen she swing the stick here and there then the fish ball flew out of the stick and rolled. hah so funny sia

then aft that, i, kaiyi, aaron, hamizan, azhar and their other frens walk to bus stop together. then under on void deck, kaiyi said eh guys, 54321 blast off then he fart. we all like WTF %&^$*%^#$%^.

ok so schl blog ends here.

i recently had a nightmare. its felt like its dam real.
i dreamt that, it was the first day of schl, a new guy came, he was in her class, He asked her fer stead, she dunno y jus accepted but she wasn't herself, he was like hypnotysing her then one day, she was like missing, gone, jus disappeared and that guy was oso gone, then i and some frens os mine and hers, we setted out to find her. we searched and searched but there was one place we haven find, the boy's hse, we headed over there then, tragic thing happened, to me sibei sad, i noe it may be exaggerating but we saw her body there. then that guy jus disappeared there but one think is that, what we saw at his hse was the newspaper, boy, dies in horror car crash and the pic was that boy's pic and the newspaper date was 16.8.2004.i was like f***ing angry with myself, why din i protect her and stayed back in schl with her.
i noe this story may sound very fake like i bluffing but i really had this dream and i dun wanna lose her

ok la. i'm done, peace out

2006-12-14T08:31:00.000-08:00

i jus dunno y but i have been into blogging this few and most of the post are long. so i shall blog today and its a long one again.

Today. overslept again. i owaes over slp when i going with my frens one seh. but if going out with the girl i love i will be early. so i rushed and went to meet aaron at Tmart mc, he was like at there eating with farah and nasuha. then it was raining very heavily. but b4 that, i was at my hse waiting fer bus then when the bus came, the stupid bus uncle stop the bus rite, the distance between the bus and the shelter very far, then i got all wet. but in the end went to aaron's hse in the rain with jervis. but at the esso bus stop, i saw claudia. meihua and their frens. all soaked cos of the rain. then awhile later, 29 came.. so aaron jervis and i boarded it and headed straight to aaron's hse. ryan then came to borrow transporter. i can't stand when in aaron's hse. his brother. thats right. b.r.o.t.h.e.r. his bro dam noisy la. then abit complain. no offence aaron but i am speaking the truth.
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i did say that i shall not repost anithing i wrote in my blog b4. but i really wanna post this again. really i want. i will oso add things and this is it::::::

The world is not at peace anymore.Bombings, riots and with all the attacks. I dun want another war. I am afraid very afraid that if there is war, Everything would be lost. i dun wanna lose u cos i still wanna hang on to u cos i care for u and i still love u. but no one noes if there is another war. so i wanna spend time with u now.

Life is unpredictable.No one is able to tell his or her own future. I jus am scared that i will lose somethings that are important to me. those things are important to other ppl too but to me they are super important cos without them , i will not be able to do anithing cos without all of it, i can't seem to face u anymore. They are:

My Eyes: if i lose them, i will not be able see u smile and ur beautiful and cute face.ur that very beautiful and cute face. And i can't be able to see the sunset with u.

My Ears: If i lose them, i will not be able to hear ur sweet sweet voice and things u have to say or listen to things u want me to hear.

My Voice:If i lose it, i can jus die cos i can't talk to u and i can't be able to tell u: "I Love U and Only U, And u are my One and Only true love, and losing u means losing my life and i have no more purpose to carry on living my life."

My Hands: losing this, will be losing prt of my life cos i can't be able to hold u tight and hold ur hand when i am with u and onli u.

My Legs:If i lose them, I will not be able to walk to meet u and can't go out with u to shopping.

My Mind: I wouldn't be able to think of u and keep thinking more of u and remember what are ur favourites.

My Life: If i lose it, I will not be able to meet u and i wouldn't exist anymore in this wrld and be drifted to a place where i am alone and submerge in darkness

One last thing.
My Heart: Without it, i wouldn't be able to love u and i wldn't have this feeling of love for u that its gonna be onli fer u fer a very long time. the time till i die.

ok so i have reposted this and editted it and i mean it!!!!!.
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So i have been addicted to a new song and its the song playing in the blog. haiz. my music taste has changed since i entered sec schl. The music has changed frm R&B, Hiphop, pop, to Emo, punk, rock. but i still got hear those genres but its jus that i have added new genres of music into my life. let me give u some music title to enjoy to.

The Top 25 songs to hear in this wrld:
1st: My chemical romance: Welcome to the black parade
2nd: Three days grace: Pain
3rd: Panic! at the disco: I Write Sins Not Tragedies
4th: Orson: No Tomorrow
5th: The All American Rejects: Move Along
6th: The All American Rejects: It ends tonight
7th: Fort Minor: Where'd you go
8th: Fort Minor: Believe me
9th: Snow Patrol: Chasing cars
10th: Justin timberlake feat T.I and Timbaland: My Love
11th: Jesse McCartney: Right Where You want me
12th: Rihanna: Unfaithful
13th: Red Hot Chilli Peppers: Dani California
14th: Daniel Powter: Bad Day
15th: Akon feat Eminem : Smack that
16th: Cascada: Everytime We Touch
17th: Fergie feat Will.i.am: Fergalicious
18th: Neyo: So Sick
19th: Nick Lachey: Whats Left Of Me
20th: Nelly Furtado feat Timbaland: Promiscuous
21th: Nelly Furtado: All Good Things
22th: Akon feat Snoop Dogg: I wanna love u
23th: Evanescence : Call me when you're sober
24th: P.Diddy feat Nicole Scherzinger: Come To Me
25th: Wang Lee Hom: Kiss Goodbye

three days grace: pain. heres the lyrics

Pain - without love
Pain - I can't get enough
Pain - I like it rough
Cuz I'd rather feel pain then nothing at all

Your sick of feeling numb
Your not the only one
I'll take you by the hand, and I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt, When happiness doesn't work
Trust me, and take my hand when the lights go out you'll understand

Pain - Without love
Pain - I can't get enough
Pain - I like it rough
Cuz I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain - Without love
Pain - I can't get enough
Pain - When I get rough
Cuz I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony are better, than misery
Trust me I've got a plan when the lights go out you'll understand

Pain - Without love
Pain - I can't get enough
Pain - I like it rough
Cuz I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain - Without love
Pain - I can't get enough
Pain - I like it rough
Cuz I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel PAIN!

I know that your wounded
Then Im here to save you
I am waiting for you
That you'll thank me later

Pain - Without love
Pain - I can't get enough
Pain - I like it rough
Cuz I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain - Without love
Pain - I can't get enough
Pain - I like it rough
Cuz I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Rather feel pain that nothing at all
Rather feel PAIN!!

2006-12-12T08:07:00.000-08:00

I shall blog again. I dunno y but this few days keep feel like blogging. maybe cos i have been lazy then i feel guilty ba. BUT HU CARES BOUT MY BLOG BUT AT FIRST. HU WLD EVEN CARE BOUT ME. SO Y BOTHER TO WRITE THIS. BUT I STILL WANNA RITE.

ok lets get to some business. the real entry.

Today i went to wrk fer me dad at his stall. really can't stand his wrker that ah wu. my pa can't stand him, uncle choy can't stand him, my mum can't stand him and even i can't stand it. lets see y we can't stand him.
1st: he NVR NVR EVER admits his mistakes.
2nd: what he thinks is funny , makes no sense.
3rd customer nvr order frm him he still wanna listen.
4th: my father taking ppl's order, he taking rice halfway then go and listen to the order even when i tell him continue his wrk.
theres more but i do not wish to say.
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haiz. what else to say.

oh yah. been talking to ah hsien jie this few days cos we is like super many yrs nvr see each other liao then onli this yr we both saw each other again. we both change alot and its really ALOT. last time i so short then now hor, i as tall as them ( ah hsien, ah ling jie) liao. but i will be taller muahahaha. wander will be taller as ah soon kor anot? hmmm.. Ah hsien jie noes my blog add and i told her to keep it a secret and dun tell the others and i trust her, really trust her.

now let me tell u of 8 ppl that i can trust.really trust and won't give a doubt about him or her.
names are in ranking
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1st : My one true bro. Tong khee
why: We've been through thick and thin and we're bros fer life. everything we share. secrets ,all we noe bout each other. we noe each other super well. we're oso 348s

2nd: My best mei Mongchin
why: she is jus one mei that i noe i can trust. i and tong and her and yan, were sort of bros and sis frm p3 all the way and we still treat each other that way. and shes gd to kajiao. haha. alwaes tio prank call by me and tong. oso frm 348s

3rd: Super senile mei, claudia
why: she is another mei i can trust cos no matter what i tell her, a few days later she will forget cos she has stml. so its gd. lol. and yah. oso gd to bully. muahaha

4th: Aaron
why: we are frm EleMentZ and we nid to trust and i have been trusting him all along, way b4 EleMentZ was born. his been a very gd fren and alwaes been trustable.

5th: Kaiyi
why: another brother frm EleMentZ. i met him since the first day of schl and its was through a way i do not which to say as it will freak out some ppl. aft the first day of sec schl, we have been very gd frens. and then along with aaron , we all were buddies. he oso has another clique but that click doesn't like us (me and aaron) accept fer some. cos it is led by a stupid milo kia hu thinks he so pro in soccer. so when we are out, kaiyi tries to keep me away frm them incase that they go with those stupid BLAHBLAHSBLAHS.

6th: Yanxu
why: the guy hu no matter what u tel him, he is hear one place in the other place out. was one of the person hu decided with me the name 348s

7th: Junhao
why: we love the same girl and hate the same guy but i think hes backing out on the girl. but the guy we hate is very idiotic and small size. (this is not junhao urself, zhenyu, chenpin)the guy i shall say now ba. elzern, yeah PINTO ELZERN DILLION. i and jun have been on very gd terms and we alwaes can be seen hanging out aft schl at either 1E1 or mac, the usual or esoo.

8th: Ah hsien jie or val jie.
why: i have been toking to her fer very long recently and i gave her my blog add and i told her to keep it a secret. then i really trust her very well and we have been gd with each other since young. i actually nvr see a for alot of yrs until this yr. so she is oso in my trusted list.
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EleMentZ. Da band

this band strted out when 3boys were sitting in a empty classrm and one dude on his fone and strted playing kiss gd bye. thats when this 3 frens knew that since they like singing, one of the dudes decides that they shld be a band, and frm that day on. EleMentZ was born but the original name was actually KAK cos they used the first initials of their name.

let me give u an intro on EleMentZ

Band Leader: Aaron.
Element: Light
reason: warm and joyful
BIO : he was the dude hu played kiss gdbye. he is oso half chinese half indian.

Co-leader: Kenneth
Element: Darkness
reason: Emo and hard to tell the real him
BIO: he was the dude hu decided to form the band. he is full blooded chinese and a metalic basin.

Guider: Kaiyi
Element: Fire
reason: happy and cheerful
BIO: he is the dude that alwaes sing. He is full blooded chinese and tai chi master, and is the owner of old chang kee. lol.

i shall end it here. i was here and gone

2006-12-10T05:19:00.000-08:00

Been so lazy this few days that i was too lazy to blog. shall blog now.

Lets talk bout the past:

I had to blog this last time but i forgot sia.
The hype up 2006 concert. it was one heck of a fun show. the most memorable thing is The song by don and drew. be my valentine.
There was one opening that really made me surprised. me fav s'pore idol singer's opening. paul's opening. he came out jamming on, not a guitar, but a broom.
then jonathan sang a canto song.
Daphane showed her wild side of her
wah really surprised me was that Taufik and Olinda Sang "yue liang dai biao wo de xing." taufik sang chinese wow.

then lets see still got what ar.
ah yah.
I went with my dad to the mitsubishi car show called turbo charge.
woah the cars the were awesome, how they customised it. i love the body kit.
then when i got there, i was late and had missed the preliminary rounds of the NFS carbon competition where the price was a X-BOX 360!!!!!!!!!!!!! But there was bout 8 machines in one corner where we can play the NFS carbon and i tried it out, and it rox to da core. then got one hiphop performance at the end of the show and i feel like the dance was abit lame. By luck, my father's fren, who i noe very well too was the one to shift the X-box 360 away, gave me alot of time to play it. then i play alone lor cos the show end liao and i was like the onli boy left playing it. and yah through out the whole show, i was one of the two kid to be there. all the other ppl was like adults like dat.

now, back to the present:
Many things to tok.

The thursday that jus passed, i went out with aaron to the movie. He invite his cuzzin eugene and pri schl fren ryan to da show. we watched open season. i and eugene then became frens but nvr with ryan cos he left early. Aft movie, ryan left.
Leaving me and eugene and aaron. we played at tamp mall first, then went to century square, as usual, ppl hu see me play outrun noe what to expect but when eugene saw, he was surprised bout my skill. I then tot eugene and aaron the rite way of outrunning and tot them manual. and by surprise, eugene faired more well then aaron. eugene made it to cloudy highland while aaron onli made it to castle wall. and eugene played initial D and got trashed by some guy.then we walked around cs then went to food court eat. saw peining and her frens. aft that my mom called then aaron and eugene went to tm to buy stuff and i headed my way to find my mum and we said to meet at lime sonic bang but in the end, we didn't meet. aaron went to malaysia, eugene lost his pass, i was abit lazy.

Now fer all ppl hu can't beat me at outrun and those hu are going to try playing outrun2, I shall teach u guys the technique that i tot kaiyi , aaron, eugene. the RITE way.

- on ur first track,Palm beach, DO NOT drift until the area b4 the highway where there are alot of buildings.

- On Palm beach pls control ur turning when on the beach area. turn the steering wheel all the way but control it depending on ur speed.

-On Deeplake of lane A, there is no need to drift till the part aft the second bridge. that is where u need drift well in order to pass it. immediately aft the bridge, drift when u see the cones.

-Now Castle wall. there is one road aft the first drift, that road is smt like the double drift in deeplake but one thing is that there will be a small straight road inbetween those 2 curves and u mus watch ur drift carefully

- in castle wall, there is a last curve b4 the highway. on that curve, turn ur steering wheel all the way and when the road is turning straight again, control back ur steering wheel

-then there is still cloudy highland. one place to watch ur drift is on the mountain at cloudy highland. u are suppose to double drift but pls drift early on the second.

- ONE LAST THING TO TAKE NOTE. The most important drift method. ABAT: Accelerate , Brake, Accelerate, Turn. and dun try to use the gear stick drift unless u are very pro. i hardly use it.

i am done with tips.

this shall be the end. this entry shall be continue on a new one

2006-11-26T05:52:00.000-08:00

Now to say bout the past week

Monday, not many things happened

Tuesday.. woohooo the bbq at jun's place savanah!!!
Lets see.
3am : wokeup feel asleep again
4am : wokeup and fell to lala land again.
4.30 : wokeup and saw the sky turn bright
7am : sleep again.
12.30: awaken by fone call, then decided to wake up then took a little rest then
3.30: panic!! 30mins left b4 going to meeting place. bathed get ready everything
4++: reached in time and everybody not there yet onli i, tyng and agnes and their mei and claudia and gohgoh.

Seto then came. Then huiying i think or was it junhao and jianglong first.
Then headed to 201 opp mac the bus stop to w8 fer bus. i and jianglong challenge then we ran then stop the walk then ran again. bus came then was onli one bus stop then we walk all the way into savanah. CURSE those bloody security guards of savanah. they so kaypoh. ok. then we strt bbq. while preparing, we guys help jun's dad make the bbq then the girls were under a block playing with a cute little dog then i and jun go find them then tok abit. Later on, tyngyuan, agnes, huiying, claudia say they have to go then by the means of i, ah gong who is jianglong and jun keep telling them all the blah blah blah.tyng and agnes mus finish a cup of cocktail each then they can go then they finish liao then they go Then tyng say what y dun have the bbq in the aftnoon, like hello? hu bbq in broad day light when its is so hot that u can use the sunlight to bbq liao(this one was made by jun the mom.) Junhao and i then walk them till the guard hse cos jun nvr bring cardkey. Claud and huiying got stay fer the bbq but not fer long. then later on in the night, seto left cos he got another bbq at downtown east. later in the night, Goh goh left liao. living me and jun and jianglong. we then went swimming. we keep playing the water slide. trying new ways to slide down then jun when sliding down, gave me a accidental kick on the butt which he was slidding down at full force. then we went the deep pool then jus like played everywhere. aft that, we went to shower, then me dad call say wanna pick me up then jianglong oso hitched a ride la but we went to jun hse first b4 my dad came to fetch cos he was late then we go jun hse lor. jun mom made soup then i and jianglong oso got share in the soup. abit paiseh la.

now fer wed: not much la. just went bowling with me uncle and aunty, and YAY i improved hardly got longkang. then when to the nearby hawker centre eat the malay chicken rice. dam hot sia the chilli but the food was Go~~od

thursday:Went out with lucas and yang.I went to tampinies mall to w8 fer lucas and yang. when i got there, yang say lucas still slping. yang call and call till lucas woke up. But then i alone at the arcade there was like playing the drifting one, then shooting one. then saw luqman!! long time nvr see him liao. i and him play the army tanks game.then later on i went to century square the arcade find yang and lucas, then at the escalator met them. we go arcade and play. Then Outrun2 got two indian playing, they very suck sia. The left side one, didn't drift well and crash alot, the right side one, play manual then i think she dunno she play manual then when game ending, she then noe need to shift gear. then they left, i tell yang all this he then dunno say what la. i then play. the first course had a little accident, yang say i what la blah blah blah then i manage to make up fer time. then cos later on i manage to get get my drift well at the second course and the third course, yang say i got future in outrun. then drift drift drift all the way to the end to the finish line then i notice alot off ppl watching me drift then yang and lucas mouth drop. aft that, i and yuyang head on to time crisis2. we complete the whole game with yang using more money then me cos he died more. then went to TM. i and yang again played jurassic park and completed it. and again ppl were watching and so amazed. lucas and yang then played house of the dead 2 and onli went to last stage. then i teached yang and lucas the way to drift at daytona and outrun. end of the day, hand pain again aft pressing the trigger too much.

and that sums it up. gone and bye.

STAY Emo BE Punk

2006-11-15T04:25:00.000-08:00

Its been long since i blogged. abit sick and tired. dun feel well. may collapse anitime.

The whole of last week was fcuking wrk wrk wrk wrk wrk wrk wrk wrk wrk wrk wrk. but me supervisor is gd one la. his name, billy. then met a few ppl. Wada (i noe the name is weird cos she half malay half chinese), Enyu and Junxin (u got to believe this but they both are like szekeat(enyu) Cheryl(Junxin). dun believe ask hoeyin)

Yesterday morning actually went to zoo with jie, jiefu and tong but jie and jiefu cldn't come. I and tong then went to walk the whole zoo. Then at the end, reach the donkey place. managed to snap a pic of tongkhee and his bros. Muahahaha. will upload pix soon.Then when it ended, call my dad to pick us up cos he wrks near by and around that time was the "no ppl" period. Then while waiting, got the drums by the wall there what. i and tong then created our very own tune. It was frm slow to fast to faster. What a fun morning.
Then yesterday evening, Jiefu call me go simei pei him w8 fer jie. Firdaus (Kuro) was there and got another guy who i dun even noe the name was also there. then jie came out of the tuition centre late. we all made our way to East point and finally can race with jiefu. it was a 1v1 then i win cos jiefu gear stick got prob, then it was me, kuro, jiefu race. Wah jie dam evil la. dun want me win jiefu then keep pressing my view change button then i lost to jiefu but still got second cos i manage to pass kuro who took my position when jie kajiaoed.

Then today actually want to go with yang to find val then yang nvr go so i alone go but nvr find val but to play arcade. mus remember NVR GO ARCADE ALONE COS IT WILL BE VERY BORING. was like at the arcade then played daytona 2 on and on and on and cos my drift was very gd la den got ppl keep looking. cldn't beat my old record of 4/40. today onli like 7th place nia.

Still dam addicted to black parade. Can't stop listening cos i wanna learn the drum beats

how ba. write till here ba.

I was gone

2006-10-29T20:35:00.000-08:00

Begin one short prt first.

I jus dunno y la but i still keep questioning myself.
Did i did the rite thing by choosing. I dun wan someone to walk out of my life.

Now it strts.

Its been awhile since i blogged and i sort of forgot all the stuff i wanna rite but still can remember abit.

Last week, there was a few ambassador trips. i and aaron were in the same grp when we were in yumin then, we met a new fren lixin/joyce. then we went around to promote our schl. then aft all the promoting, i, aaron, clinton, lixin, ms sim, ms chai were all slacking downstairs in the canteen. ms sim then say the fishball soup very nice, then frm that on, everyone strted buying it. muahahaha.

Then this whole week, i went out with tong and taufik around simei to play bball and soccer. really. is the whole week. then one of the days, joyce jie oso folo us go play then u noe what, she keeper, ppl kick the ball is rolling one. then i leh, they is ram one.

then yesterday. early morining b4 ambassador, i and aaron went to Mac fer breakfast, then wei xiang, edward(i think) , joyce jie, shi chang, clinton os went to Mac. then jie pass me the cookies she baked lor. wah!!! supernice. then we headed to schl and then to chongzheng. Miss it alot. then saw mrs Olivero, Miss lee, mdm kamaliah, Mr seow, Mdm leong. miss lee and mdm kamaliah got tok to me lor. then ask me bout my result then ii was like ok ok lor. Then we all like yah. erm. yah . then i go liao lo

In the aftnoon, I went swimming with tongkhee and his bro in their grandmothers condo at tropical spring.then aft swimming 12 laps (i think) we go the jacuzzi and relax but onli i and tong go first. then we sit there, relax and tok bout the past and the present. remembering the gd old days of CZ. then when we finish liao, i and tong head back our own ways to put our bags then meet at the bridge. then aft that tong call yan. then aft a certain time of "begging" yan came. then we went to the arcade. sia la. the auntie and uncle were there again playing the street basketball again. but they were super pro. every shot was scored. but the most pro one was they play until both machine the scoreboard jam. then we went to pet safari. got one dog blardy hell eat his own shit.then i met jie at pet safari there. JIEFU. TAKE NOTE. JIE WAN DOG. BUY FOR HER

ok ba write till here ba.

KenRen The Undaunted Dead was here

2006-10-26T03:25:00.000-07:00

One by one they went. one by one they left. i am stuck here and unmovable in this lonely and painful and full of sorrow world.

2006-10-23T23:37:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile since i posted.

Haish. Lifes hard and i want to end it now. I have onli two reason to carry on living. One is jus fer her i have the sake of carry on. then the others is frens i am very gd with.

then this are some of the onli things i wanna tell her and i wld wanna say this.

It was u when I alwaes tot of dying but u were the person hu told me dying isn't the onli way to settle problems.

I Promised u that b4 i die, i wanted to tell the girl i truly love. I love u and i truly do. And indeed i told the girl i love. I truly Love U and it was u.

The most special person to me was u

What wld i do without u.

U told me that u wanna die sometimes but i already told u that if u ever wanna die, i will not live on too cos i will oso die mentally and physically.

To me, losing u is like losing my purpose of living in Life.

I jus got this feeling that u are the one and onli girl i want. its the truth and it came frm the heart.

One thing i can't forget is the sweet smile u have .

I love u fer hu u are.

I wanna hold ur hand tight and walk with u through ur days of darkness and loneliness.

I can w8 fer U cos U are worth waiting

I will not cheat u of ur love cos i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really reallyreally really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really LOVE LOVE LOVE u

I can prove it to u that i love u but i jus dunno how but to jus let fate decide whether u will be mine or not.

that is jus some of the things i said but i jus really wanna hold ur hand and be with u.

2006-10-16T07:43:00.000-07:00

Sian la my life. Got quite a few things to rite.
1st thing: That day went out to watch movie with Kaiyi, Aaron, Ryson, Bryan, pinsheng, Jervis. We actually wanna watch movie then the show we want show liao and Then we go pastamania eat lunch and all the thing so ex. Then we go to the Arcade and play awhile. Play daytona with Pin sheng and Ryson.I got 1st.Ryson 2nd, Pinsheng 3rd. Then when we go play daytona 2 rite. we play finish liao then Say aiyah go watch the 3 o'clock one la ( cos we missed the 12.30 one) Then when we about to go, buy ticket rite, haven step into GV then the light went BOOM and no lights anymore. The whole cinema short circuit. Later at 5pm liao, Everyone go home liao except for me, Pinsheng, Kaiyi, Aaron. we go open plaza, Kaiyi wanna climb the go alot of wire that one. then when he climb on one of the plastic thing on the wire , i shout to kaiyi the thing bending liao then when kaiyi come down, the plastic frm straight become bent. Oolala. we aft that go to isetan and then we dunno why la , go see how the uncle cook. Then when the uncle make the hwak kway, he say mus steam the thing and u noe what he say, " Eh wo gen ni men jiang. Yan can cook , uncle can steam." then we four laugh and laugh like hell.

2nd thing. i found out smt. Someone who i tot i cld jus trust rite. he turned around and backstabbed me. Mus thank that gd guy fer telling me this guy backstabbed me.betrayed me.

3rd thing: Jervis he another guy hu betray and lucky hoeyin tell me but 4give and forget jervis liao la. this secret one day other ppl wil noe the

4th thing. I dunno why la. but u can ask my frens la. Aft i met her , The girl i tot i can really truly love, protect her, care for her , do anithing fo~~~~~. ok lets not get too carried away. but ever since i knew her, i dunno why la at outrun2 i have been so gd at drifting that every drift, i keep thinking bout her and there goes a smooth sailing drift.

ok la write till here. sayonara

2006-10-11T22:56:00.000-07:00

sho sian. Can't tell her how i feel. how i really feel. sian la now only one song i can think of.

Ryan cabrera: True

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

2006-10-07T00:46:00.001-07:00

I dun even noe how to tell her properly. how can i really tell her that i love her and i truly do. There are many wrds in my mind that is hard to say it out.but easy to type it out. i am not toking to the person directly so there is nth to be afraid but face to face is smt scary. What i can do now is jus to type it out.

This is personally to her and i think she won't read it

The world is not at peace anymore.Bombings, riots and with all the attacks. I dun want another war. I am afraid very afraid that if there is war, Everything would be lost. i dun wanna lose u cos i still wanna hang on to u cos i care for u and i still love u.

Life is unpredictable.No one is able to tell his or her own future. I jus am scared that i will lose somethings that are important to me. those things are important to other ppl too but to me they are super important cos without them , i will not be able to do anithing cos without all of it, i can't seem to face u anymore. They are:

My Eyes: if i lose them, i will not be able see u smile and ur beautiful face.ur very beautiful face.

My Ears: If i lose them, i will not be able to hear ur sweet sweet voice and things u have to say.

My Voice:If i lose it, i can jus die cos i can't be able to tell u: "I Love U and Only U"

My Legs:If i lose them, I will not be able to walk and go out with u and the others but most of all u

My Mind: I wouldn't be able to think of u and keep thinking more of u.

My Life: If i lose it, I will not be able to meet u and i wouldn't exist anymore.

One last thing. My Heart: Without it, i wouldn't be able to love u and i wldn't have this feeling of love for u.

What is love?

To me, Love is a feeling for someone. It is a special feeling for someone special. That special someone is someone who u will wanna spend the nxt part of ur life journey with. Love is the feeling of : I Have for that special girl and I wanna love that girl with all my heart and protect her, Care for her, Be with her all my life. I will alwaes wanna make that girl happy and i wldn't want to see her so sad and down. I will try my best to do everything for her and grant her wishes.

2006-10-05T02:40:00.000-07:00

The Ah gong gang gang.
From Left to right. Claudia, Tyng Yuan(head slanting) , Junhao(Standing), Me (yellow shirt),
Nick GohGoh(behind Me), Gabriel(Beside Goh), Ah gong!(beside me), Seto (In Front of ah gong)
Today was maths paper. Wah. As what we were told by ms lin: " U all mus study one. u go ask the other class how evil i am and how difficult my test paper ." but u noe what happen. the paper was only soso not really difficult. Miss lin say like very the difficult like that but not at all lor. Then now different story. The girl i love. She noes this but one thing is that i noe she won't accept me one. i jus noe.But i truly love her and very very much i jus will be there for her anytime. ok la not much to say. now i upload pics la.

Fuyo. They rawk in breaking

2006-09-22T09:05:00.000-07:00

Today not much thing to rite la. Except go the Chung Cheng High Main. Go there nth to do one. sho boring. Then when got break rite, Eastspring Sec VS Chung Cheng high Basketball. and guest the results. We kena trashed and veri badly. Then i smsed jun to ask if that asshole got bully HER then he said smt that happened and i tot that i shld have been there cos that asshole is going way way way wayyyyyyyyyyy over board. now wanna fight with us. I bodyslam u then u get internal bleeding then u know what is pain really called.
Haish. today onli can rite so short. then i upload my class foto ba.